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Spencer Pratt’s Mayoral Bid: Unpacking Local Political Rot

There is something refreshingly raw about a figure like Spencer Pratt, the infamous “villain” from The Hills, stepping into the political arena. Yes, I admit it: I have always been drawn to the villain in the story— the one who everyone else seems to hate. And right now, as Pratt campaigns for Mayor of Los Angeles in the 2026 race, that glossing over him is driving me absolutely insane.

The 2026 Experience

Pratt, who announced his bid on the one-year anniversary of the devastating Palisades Fire that claimed his own home, is not running a conventional campaign. He is on a mission to expose what he calls deep-seated fraud, mismanagement, and dysfunction in California. He talks boldly about cleaning up the streets, tackling homelessness (those “zombies”— as he calls them— wandering the city in a drug-fueled haze), and holding the powers-that-be accountable. It is the kind of outsider energy that resonates in a city plagued by visible decay. Yet the media and political insiders treat him like a punchline rather than a serious contender polling in the twenties and surging with real voter frustration. There should be a lesson in that.

Here is the core lesson I have learned from observing politics at every level, and this is not a partisan jab—it is a structural truth that transcends red, blue, or whatever color-coded tribe you belong to: If you truly want meaningful change, you have to drive it locally. Primarily, start with yourself. National spectacles and global posturing grab headlines, but the day-to-day realities that crush or elevate ordinary lives—trash on the sidewalks, skyrocketing rents, failing schools, unchecked crime—are decided in city halls, county offices, and state capitals. The so-called “global elite,” do not lose sleep over the average taxpayer scraping by. They are insulated by distance, wealth, and influence. Real accountability starts at the street level.

Yes, Pratt promises to shine a light on the waste, the fraud, and the entrenched interests that have turned parts of LA into an open-air disaster zone. But let us be brutally honest: do we really believe the system will simply let him? The mayor’s office sits beneath the governor’s shadow in the hierarchy of power. Look at the Zohran guy who won the mayoral election in NYC. never mind that I personally do not support his policies, I am pretty sure that he was never allowed to install his vision. It is because the governor makes the policies. And governors, like California’s Gavin Newsom, are in the business of creating jobs and opportunities—or at least the appearance of them. Here is where the cynical machinery reveals itself:

An hourglass with coins spilling over divides a prosperous city from a poorer settlement below.

Imagine a city where homelessness and open drug use are largely erased. No more tent encampments. No more “zombies” shuffling through downtown or Venice Beach. On the surface, that sounds like victory. But zoom out: entire industries, nonprofits, task forces, union contracts, consulting gigs, and government programs depend on the existence of these problems. Cleanup crews, social workers, outreach teams, mental health contractors, housing initiative funders—the list goes on. If the problem vanishes, so does the justification for the budgets, the grants, and the jobs that flow from it.

This is not conspiracy; it is economics 101. Problems that fester generate employment. Politicians can campaign on “solutions” year after year, securing votes from those dependent on the system while reassuring the frustrated public that help is always just one more program, one more tax increase, one more initiative away. “We’re working on it,” they say, as the tents multiply and the needles pile up. Clean it all up too effectively, and suddenly there is a surplus of idle bureaucrats and contractors wondering where their next paycheck comes from. Better to manage the crisis than solve it outright.

That is the quiet cynicism at the heart of so much local governance. The people are left in a dependent loop, turning to “daddy government” for salvation while the same officials who presided over the decline promise yet another fresh start. Meanwhile, the average Angeleno deals with the fallout: unsafe streets, businesses fleeing, quality of life evaporating. Pratt’s outsider status—reality TV fame, no long political résumé—might be exactly what makes him threatening to this ecosystem. He does not owe favors to the same players as the regular politicians. He lost his home to what he sees as failed leadership. That personal stake could fuel genuine disruption, or it could highlight just how immovable the bureaucratic blob really is. We will see how this all plays out…

I am not endorsing every plank of Pratt’s platform, nor am I blind to the spectacle of a Hills villain turned mayoral hopeful. But the visceral reaction against him from certain corners says more about the defenders of the status quo than about Pratt himself. In an era where frustration with visible failure is boiling over, his surge in the polls (recent numbers putting him in striking distance) reflects an electorate tired of the same scripted failures. But I remain skeptical whether his lofty vision is plausible.

I know that is not how the political game is played. Local politics matters because it is where we see the proof in action. If we keep waiting for distant saviors or global resets, we will stay stuck in this cycle of decline. Whether Pratt can actually break it remains to be seen on June 2 and beyond. But ignoring the messenger because of his reality TV past, while the city continues its slide, would be the real insanity. Change starts local. The question is whether we will let the problems keep paying the salaries, or finally demand they end.

May 26, 2026
Cottagecore: Embrace the Gentle Rebellion Against Hustle Culture

In a world that glorifies the relentless grind—the 5 a.m. alarms, the overflowing inboxes, the endless cycle of productivity hacks and side hustles—there is a quiet revolution blooming in meadows and on windowsills. It is called cottagecore, and it is not just an aesthetic. It is a lifeline for those of us whose nervous systems have been fried by the modern expectation to do it all, be it all, and still look effortlessly polished while doing so.

Cottagecore is the dream of soft mornings wrapped in linen, the scent of fresh bread cooling on the windowsill, hands stained with berry juice from jam-making rather than ink . It is the gentle rejection of a life that was never designed for human flourishing. And for many burned-out Zoomers (and yes, some of us who came just before them), it became the soft landing we desperately needed.

Picture this: You are rushing out the door, hobbling in stilettos, latte in one hand, briefcase threatening to burst just like your barely-contained anxiety. You Uber across the city for a meeting that could have been an email, all while mentally preparing for happy hour later—because heaven forbid you miss the narrow window to “meet someone” who might join you for brunch on the weekend. Then, because society demands you remain a certain shape, you drag yourself to a workout class at dawn so you do not become one of those “sad piles of fat.”

A businesswoman confidently strides across a busy city street holding coffee and files

Layer on top of that the constant family obligations, notifications that never stop pinging, and the quiet terror that if you slow down for even a moment, you can fall behind. Our nervous systems were never meant to handle this level of stimulation. We are wired for seasonal rhythms, for community in small doses, for rest that actually restores.

The pandemic, for many, cracked the illusion wide open. Suddenly the hamster wheel paused. No more commuting. No more forced socializing that left us emptier than before. And in that stillness, a truth emerged: we do not actually want the girlboss life. We want to bake sourdough at 10 a.m. on a Tuesday. We want to knit by the window while it rains. We want to tend a garden that feeds us more than just vegetables—it feeds our souls.

A person plants a young herb in a sunny garden bed surrounded by labeled plants and gardening tools.

I am not Gen Z. I did not discover cottagecore because the hustle culture finally broke me during lockdown. I chose this life because I fell in love—with a person, with a pace, with a vision of days that felt like poetry instead of performance.

While the world was collectively reevaluating during those strange years, my slower lifestyle was already taking root. The pandemic did not force my hand; it simply confirmed what my heart already knew. I did not want to optimize my life for maximum output. I wanted to nurture. To create a home that felt like an embrace. To build something sustainable not just for my bank account, but for my spirit.

There is profound strength in choosing the wooden spoon over the corner office. In trading stilettos for wool socks and well-worn boots. In measuring success by how many jars of jam line your pantry shelves instead of how many LinkedIn connections you have made.

This is not about cosplaying: romanticizing poverty or playing pretend farm. It is about reclaiming what actually makes us feel alive.

Cottagecore reminds us that caring— for a home, a garden, a partner, ourselves—is not weakness. It is the most radical act in a culture that tells us to outsource our softness.

A warm rustic kitchen bathed in morning sunlight overlooking a garden

We were not built for constant performance. Our bodies and minds crave the slow turn of seasons, the satisfaction of self-sufficiency, the deep peace that comes from creating rather than consuming.

To every soul who feels the pull toward this softer path: you are not lazy. You are not failing at modern life. You are remembering something ancient and true.

Cottagecore is not an escape. It is a homecoming.

May 23, 2026
Why I Embrace My Ego: A Counter to Eckhart Tolle’s Philosophy

Look, I am not here to hate on spirituality. I am deep in the gratitude game. I say my thank-yous to the universe, I journal my little wins, I burn sage when the vibe feels off. I am not some closed-off cynic. But The Power of Now? Eckhart Tolle’s whole “dissolve your ego and float in the present moment like a neutered zen monk” sermon? Hard pass. That does not sit right with me. It actually pisses me off a little.

The core of his gospel is this idea that your ego — those loud, chaotic, nonstop voices in your head — is the enemy. The villain that keeps you trapped in regret about yesterday and anxiety about tomorrow. Just drop it, he says. Surrender. Become pure consciousness. Be here. Be now.

Nah. I love my ego. I cherish it. The ego has been my ride-or-die since day one.

I definitely do not dwell on the past like most people. No endless loops of “what if I’d done this differently” or chewing on ancient mistakes. I burned those bridges and kept going. But the future? Oh, I am projecting that, I am out here scripting scenes, imagining outcomes, weighing risks, and feeling a healthy dose of hesitation about what is coming. That is not a flaw. That is survival.

My ego has always been the loudest voice in the room — and I like it that way. Sure, acting like I am slightly better than everyone else has slammed some doors in my face. I have been called arrogant. Intimidating. “Too much.” Whatever. Those doors probably led to boring rooms full of beige people anyway. The same ego that rubbed some the wrong way also pulled in the chaotic, brilliant, ride-or-die humans I actually stuck with. It carved out a life that is messy, dramatic, and mine. I am not trading that for some sterile, ego-less void where I am supposed to smile at my IKEA furniture and pretend the present moment is peak existence.

Because let’s be real: I do not love the Now.

My current living situation? It is mid at best. The walls are closing in, the vibe is stale, and every day I am reminded this is not where I am supposed to settle. Everything is improving — slowly. My love life finally exists after what felt like a years in the Sahara, which should be a win, right? Except it is not all butterflies and multiple orgasms nightly. It comes with this sharp, gnawing loneliness that hits at 2 a.m. and makes me stress-eat like a raccoon in a dumpster. The Now, in 2026, tastes like lukewarm disappointment with a side of “is this it?”

And Tolle wants me to dissolve into this? To stop thinking ahead and just marinate in the current flavor of meh? Sorry, Eckhart. I am not enlightened enough to find bliss in my fridge and relationship anxiety.

I get it — rumination is a trap. Endless future-tripping can paralyze you. But pretending the ego is pure poison ignores how much fire it gives you. My ego is the part that says “I want more.” It is the voice that pushes me to level up, to demand better, to not settle for spiritual crumbs when I could build an empire (or at least a life that does not make me want to die ).

So, I will keep my ego. I will keep my sharp edges, my projections, my cocky little strut through a world that keeps trying to humble me. I will stay ungrateful about certain parts of the Now because that discontent is rocket fuel. Maybe one day I will evolve into some floating consciousness who does not need anything external. But right now? I am stress-eating, plotting my next move, and loving the chaos in my head that refuses to shut up.

Call it toxic. Call it resistance. I call it being alive.

May 22, 2026
Navigating Youthful Chaos: My High School Journey

My boyfriend and I have been mainlining our childhood like it is a caffeine drip—Beverly Hills, 90210, Melrose Place, and now it is my turn to open his eyes to my own high school drama—the glossy, sun-soaked fever dream that was The OC. God, I used to worship that world. I wanted the luxury car, the beach house, the effortless drama. Mostly I wanted the body. Marissa Cooper’s surfboard silhouette—long, lean, zero percent body fat, the kind of thin that makes clothes hang on your protruding bones. Paris Hilton-esque. vacant-eyed and untouchable. I wanted to be built like a surfboard. Instead, I got my own high school experience, which played out less like a Fox teen soap and more like a psychological horror.

I changed school districts right before freshman year so that I could attend private school. Fresh start! New hallways, new faces, new chance to reinvent myself as someone people actually wanted to sit with at lunch. I showed up with the kind of desperate optimism only a fourteen-year-old can muster. I smiled too wide. I laughed at jokes that were not actually funny. I even joined the school soccer team, even though I was only a little speedster without any soccer ball skills. I was ready to collect friends like limited-edition.

Middle school had already done its damage, though (read here). That was where I learned the rules of the game: be thin, get straight A’s, and the world will throw compliments at you like confetti. Teachers beamed. Boys stared. My mother bragged. It was the easiest dopamine I had ever scored. So when high school hit, I doubled down like a junkie with a new dealer. Social life? Optional. Body? A full-time job. Grades? Non-negotiable. Everything else could rot.

I did try, in my own half-assed way. I met boys. Kissed one. The “bad boy” ala Ryan from The OC. Let him finger me through my Juicy Couture jeans (try explaining that hole in your jeans). I even went back to my old district just to play tennis for their team—commuting like a masochist because apparently I still needed some thread connecting me to “normal” teenage life. Those bus rides were surreal: me in my little skirt, racquet between my knees, pretending I was just like everyone else while my brain screamed calorie counts and tomorrow’s biology test.

But the obsession was already metastasizing. One solid year of high school—that is all I really got before the sickness took the wheel. Freshman year had moments of light. I remember walking the halls in low-rise jeans that showed the sharp edges of my hip bones like trophies. I remember the rush when a senior looked twice. I remember thinking, This is working. Keep going.

Then the mirror became my enemy, my priest, and my dealer all at once. I stopped eating lunch. I did sit-ups until 2 am. I measured my worth in the gap between my thighs and the numbers on the scale. Straight A’s were never enough anymore—they were just part of the game. The real prize was disappearing. Becoming so small that people worried. That kind of worry felt like love.

The new school never really knew me. How could they? I was a ghost in Abercrombie. I showed up, aced everything, then vanished into my room to count ribs and cry over missed carbs. Friends tried. I pushed them away with the polite brutality of a girl who is already in love with her own destruction. Boys were easier—they wanted the fantasy, not the full dossier of my neuroses. So I became that girl… the boys’ friend. I gave them pieces. Never the whole haunted house.

Looking back, it is grotesque how romantic I made it all seem. The OC soundtrack in my head while I did crunches at midnight. The way I would stare at Marissa’s collarbones like they were scripture. I wanted that coastal California emptiness so badly I carved it into myself in the middle of nowhere suburbia. Meanwhile, the real kids around me were making memories—bonfires, breakups, bad decisions with cheap beer. I was making spreadsheets of my intake and hating myself in HD.

There is something darkly funny about it now. I traded four years of messy, stupid, glorious teenage chaos for a body that still was not thin enough and a transcript that could not hug me back. I was the girl who had it “together.” Teachers loved me. My report cards were porn for my Russian parents. And I was rotting from the inside out, polite smile stapled to my face.

If I could go back, I would tell that wide-eyed freshman something brutal: the praise feels good until it does not. The boys will not save you. The scale lies. And no amount of straight A’s will make you feel safe in your own skin. Sometimes the rebellion is not starving—it is eating the pizza and going to the dumb party anyway.

But I cannot go back. So instead I am here, rewatching The OC with my boyfriend, laughing at how fake it all looks now. Marissa’s tragic glamour hits different when you have lived a version of it and survived. I am softer now. Older. Still fucked up in new and exciting ways. But at least I am not measuring my worth in negative space anymore.

High school me would call that weak. Adult me calls it winning.

What a twisted little victory lap.

May 21, 2026
So Much For Therapy’s Deficit Model: I’m Actually Winning Right Now

I am done pretending I need to hunt for problems like some emotional truffle pig. Therapy loves to open every session with that tired script: “What’s been bothering you lately?” or the classic “What’s on your mind today?” Like clockwork. Every. Single. Time.

It is exhausting. Not because I am repressing trauma or whatever buzzword they are peddling this week, but because it forces you into this permanent defeatist mindset. Your brain starts scanning for cracks in life.. I used to play along. I used to dutifully excavate my worries about recovery—will my body ever feel like mine again? Will the future with my boyfriend actually stick or are we just trauma-bonded?—and hand them over like a good little patient.

Not lately though. Lately the script flipped and I am not apologizing for it.

I have been incredibly blessed, and saying that out loud feels almost rebellious in a culture addicted to struggle porn. My recovery is not some fragile domino set anymore; it is steady. The kind of steady where I wake up and do not immediately audit every pain like a hypochondriac auditor. My relationship? We are not just surviving—we are actually building something that does not feel like it is one bad night away from collapsing. He promises me the world and I hold him to it. We are laughing more than we are spiraling. Wild concept.

And then there was Friday.

I met my friend at that little corner café—the one with the ketogenic goodies. She has not seen me in a couple months, but she was the only one I met with post-stroke-we reconnected in 2015– when I was still drooling all over the place and pissing myself. She has since divorced, remarried, birthed two children and dominated the business world.

I just smirked and ordered my usual. Because, my own glow-up is also real. And yes I owe it mostly to him— making me less self-conscious about my body and showing me how I can be loved just by being me. Unfortunately, my entire existence has been riddled with the feeling that I am somehow “not good enough” (read more about that here and here). Enter him. My boyfriend. My knight in shining armor. Skin clearer, posture straighter, that quiet confidence that does not need to announce itself with neon. Quietly improving in all aspects of life. I have been working out with actual consistency instead of performative self-punishment. Eating like I respect my body instead of bargaining with it. Dressing like I actually want to be seen. The kind of changes that happen when you stop waiting for permission to feel good.

She kept saying I looked “different.” Lighter. Like I have shed an invisible backpack full of other people’s expectations. And she is right. I have.

Therapy wants me to pathologize this. To poke at it until I find the hidden rot. “But what if the other shoe drops?” “Are you avoiding processing—?” Nope. I am not avoiding. I am just refusing to live in the waiting room of my own life anymore, endlessly prepping for the next disaster that might not even show up.

This is not toxic positivity. This is pattern recognition. For once the scale is tipping toward good, and I am not going to self-sabotage by being suspicious about it . The universe finally tossed me a W streak and I am milking it. I am wearing the glow like it is my princess crown. Let the worried voices stay with the parents; I am out here collecting evidence that healing does not have to be miserable theater.

So next time some well-meaning therapist asks what is bothering me, I might just lean back, smile like the villain who won, and say:

“Nothing. For the first time in forever, absolutely fucking nothing. Next question.”

The glow-up is not just skin-deep. It is systemic. And I am not going back to deficit mode just to make the session notes sound productive.

Stay winning.

May 20, 2026
Retardmaxxing: Just Do It

In a timeline where every girl and soyboy is perfecting and enhancing their looks via what is referred to as “looksmaxxing”(my man likes to say that we are “soulmatemaxxing”),there is a new trend called Retardmaxxing. So instead of journaling morning routines, tracking macros like an autist, and listening to productivity podcasts, the gods have delivered the ultimate middle finger for succeeding in life : Retardmaxxing.

It is the philosophy of massive, glorious, unhinged action while telling your neurotic overthinking brain to shut up.

Popularized by Elisha Long and boosted when based tech bro Marc Andreessen started tweeting “Day 19,977 of retardmaxxing. Things going really well.” I personally heard about it from Chamath Palihapitiya on his recent Joe Rogan podcast episode. The core thesis? Stop being a paralyzed genius. Start being a retarded warrior who just goes.

It reminded me of a movie I adore: Forest Gump. I know, I know…. It is so original to love a cult classic movie, but my man literally just showed it to me a couple years ago!

I love how Gump approaches life. He literally does not know any other options exist so he goes head first into literally anything he does!

This is honestly even how I started approaching life. From diet to physical exercise to relationships— I just go. No overthinking or “Oh no” thoughts— just the simple “I want it. I do it.” Overthinking consequences manifests those consequences. Not “low IQ.” Not actual brain damage. It is weaponized anti-perfectionism. Throw everything at the wall so hard it leaves a dent. See what sticks. Adjust later. Momentum is king.

This is the antidote to looksmaxxing, sigma male grindset, and every other sterilized self-improvement cult that has you measuring your jawline instead of living.

It is spreading like wildfire because modern life turned everyone into anxious, over-educated bitches.

Retardmaxxing says: Send the risky text. Launch the business. Lift the heavy weights like a caveman. Your brain is not smarter than reality. Reality rewards the guy who moves first and figures it out in the trenches.

It is not recklessness. It is pattern recognition that overthinking is the real retard.

“Oh no, think of the disabled people!”

This is ironic internet warfare. We are reclaiming slurs faster than your therapist can prescribe your medication. The term exists to trigger exactly the pearl-clutching midwits who need retardmaxxing most. If you are too fragile for the packaging, you will never handle the content.

The message stands: God blesses his most retarded warriors. The ones who charge headfirst while the smart kids are still running simulations.

So find the thing you have been overthinking for months. That book? That cold approach? That risky career move? Good.

Make the first step so braindead easy a goldfish could do it. Open the doc. Send the message. Put on shoes.

Embrace public humiliation. Your first attempt will suck. Post it anyway. The second will suck less. By the tenth you should be cooking.

Stop listening to/ skimming podcasts and articles. Stop consuming. Start producing like a degenerate with nothing to lose.

When in doubt: be retarded. Calm when you need calm. Retarded when you need results. Never anxious.

Stop waiting for perfect conditions. Conditions are never perfect. The universe runs on chaos, not your iCalendar.

Bottom Line

Retardmaxxing is not a lifestyle. It is a nuke for your inner voice.

Intelligence without execution is mental masturbation. Stop jerking your ego and start painting the walls with your mistakes. So simply put— just do it!

May 19, 2026
Down Under Dreams: My Wild Teenage Adventure in Australia with People to People

At fifteen years old, I stepped off a plane into a world that felt like it had leaped straight out of a National Geographic. The air was warmer, drier, and carried the faint scent of eucalyptus. I was part of the People to People Ambassador Program, a life-changing opportunity that took a group of wide-eyed American teens halfway around the globe to Australia. What started as a simple cultural exchange trip quickly became a whirlwind of big-city glamour, rugged outback exploration, family-style homestays, and the kind of teenage chaos that only happens when you are far from home and the usual rules do not quite apply (the innocent kind though, not really what we see on teenager television shows).

Our itinerary was perfectly balanced between urban sophistication and raw Australian wilderness. We bounced between the gleaming harbors of Sydney and Melbourne and endless stretches of red earth in the outback. Long bus rides became our moving classrooms—hours spent watching the landscape shift from bustling streets to golden grasslands. We stayed with local families who opened their homes (and hearts) to us, sharing meals, stories, and glimpses into everyday Aussie life that no guidebook could ever capture.

Sydney hit me like a fever dream. The iconic Opera House rose like white sails against the sparkling harbor, its curves even more breathtaking in person than in any photo I had seen. We toured the Olympic facilities from the 2000 Games, walking through stadiums that once echoed with global cheers. I remember standing there, imagining the roar of the crowd, feeling tiny yet somehow part of something enormous.

But beneath the excitement, I carried a heavy secret. This was the year after I started high school, and the pressure to look and be “perfect” had already taken root in my mind. Australia felt like the ultimate reset button—a chance to reinvent myself far from judgmental eyes back home. Before the trip even began, I emailed the volunteer chaperones with a carefully worded note: I would not be eating much, and they should not worry about me. Looking back now, it breaks my heart to think of that determined, insecure fifteen-year-old girl trying so hard to control the one thing she could in a brand-new country.

On those long bus rides, packed lunches were handed out like clockwork—sandwiches thick with deli meats, crisp chips, and sweet treats. I would politely unwrap mine, eat only the apple, and quietly put the rest aside. The volunteers were kind, but I could feel their concerned glances. During our homestay in Melbourne, the warm “mom” of the house cooked a hearty Australian meal just for us. I pushed the plate away after a few bites, murmuring something about being full. Her disappointed but understanding look still lingers with me. Food became both enemy and background noise while the real adventure swirled around me.

Of course, no trip at fifteen would be complete without plenty of youthful mischief. I flirted shamelessly with the boys in our group—stolen glances across bus aisles, whispered jokes during tours, and that electric buzz of first crushes amplified by the freedom of being overseas.

The Australian sun, however, showed no mercy. Wanting to be perfect meant that I wanted golden skin. I ended up severely sunburned. My skin turned lobster-red, peeling in painful sheets for days. Lesson learned: respect the ozone hole Down Under.

One of my biggest hurdles was begging my mother—via crackly payphone calls from a random shopping mall —to let me get my belly button pierced. I pleaded, I reasoned, I dramatically described how “everyone” was doing it. She held firm.

Instead, I settled for a temporary tattoo from a quirky shop near the harbor. It was some butterfly design that I proudly showed off to the group. When I got home, I let everyone believe it was real, basking in the temporary cool factor before it faded in the shower. Small rebellions, big memories.

The real soul of the trip was during our long bus tours through the outback. The landscape stretched endlessly—red dirt, scrubby bushes, and skies so vast they made you feel wonderfully insignificant. We learned about Aboriginal culture, their deep connection to the land, and the stories passed down through oldtime legends.

A vehicle traverses a winding red dirt road through arid outback terrain under a partly cloudy sky

One unforgettable stop was a wildlife sanctuary where I finally got to hold a tiny koala. He was everything I imagined: fluffy gray fur, button eyes, and a sleepy demeanor (apparently they are constantly high from eating the eucalyptus). I beamed for the camera, arms gently cradling him. But internally? I was screaming. Those adorable little claws dug into my arm like tiny needles. Sharp did not even begin to describe it. Still, worth every scratch for that photo and the story.

We spotted kangaroos hopping freely in the wild—elegant, powerful creatures that seemed to defy gravity. At the sanctuary, we got closer, feeding them and watching their curious faces up close. Later, in a remote outback experience hosted by Aboriginal elders, we were treated to kangaroo tail. It was an honor to share in their traditional food. The tail was tough, mostly dense muscle with very little fat or tenderness—chewy, gamey, and completely unlike anything I had eaten before. It was not about gourmet flavor; it was about connection, respect, and tasting a piece of the land itself.

That trip to Australia did not magically fix my insecurities around food and body image. Those battles continued for years as I eventually got down to double digits on the bathroom scale. But it planted seeds of perspective. I saw a country that was both modern and ancient, vibrant and harsh, welcoming and wild. I learned that adventures are messy—full of sunburns, awkward flirtations, hidden struggles, and moments of pure wonder.

Holding that koala, even through the pain, symbolized something bigger: sometimes the cutest, most picture-perfect experiences are actually concealing something painful. Pushing away plates did make me feel more in control; but it also made me miss out on shared meals and hospitality. The temporary tattoo washed off, but the memories never did.

Years later, I look back on that fifteen-year-old girl with compassion. She was brave enough to travel across the world, curious enough to embrace new cultures, and human enough to make mistakes. Australia taught me that life is best experienced fully—sunburns, sharp claws, kangaroo tail, and all.

If you ever get the chance to say yes to an adventure that scares and excites you, just do it (like Nike!). Whether it is Australia or somewhere closer to home, the outback of your own growth is waiting.

May 16, 2026
The Faux Pas of Following the Script in Life

Faux pas.

Literally, it means “false step” in French—like you tripped over your own feet in the middle of a crowded ballroom and everyone turned to stare. In American English, we have borrowed the term to describe any social blunder, any tiny (or not-so-tiny) violation of the invisible rulebook that supposedly keeps society running smoothly. Say the wrong thing at a dinner party. Wear white after Labor Day. Ask a woman when she is expecting … when she is not actually pregnant. Boom. Faux pas. Social death.

The phrase has always fascinated me because it is so perfectly French in its elegance and so perfectly American in its judgment. It sounds sophisticated, almost romantic—but really it is just polite code for “you messed up and now everyone’s secretly judging you.”

And that got me thinking.

Why are we so obsessed with these invisible lines? Who drew them? Who keeps redrawing them every few years? And why does the mere idea of being told how I am“supposed” to behave in any given situation make my skin crawl and my inner rebel kick into overdrive?

I have never been good at following scripts. Not in recitals, not in job interviews, and definitely not in the grand theater of adult life. The older I get, the more I realize that a huge chunk of my personal growth has come from deliberately stepping on the lines everyone else is so busy tiptoeing around. Not out of spite (okay, sometimes out of spite), but because performing for an invisible audience feels like slow suffocation.

Let me give you an example. My lack of job or career. My relationship and its status.

Translation: Sweetie, that’s a faux pas. You’re supposed to say you are a “marketing coordinator” or “nurse practitioner” or anything that sounds like you have a 401(k) and a five-year plan.

And: He is suppossed to choose you immediately. You should live together, get married and become a family, like everyone else…

Because apparently everyone is the same and has the same path in life.

Stability is overrated when you are busy living the life you actually want. And I want to be his 100%.

That moment I am told how to live my life is never about being rude. It is all about refusing to shrink myself into the neat little box labeled “Acceptable Adult Woman.” Society has a whole collection of those boxes—career boxes, relationship boxes, body boxes, personality boxes—and they all come with instruction manuals disguised as “just common sense” or “what everyone does.” News flash: most people do not even have any sense whatsoever (so it is not really that common).

Here is the thing I have learned the hard way: those expectations are not there to protect us. They are there to keep things comfortable. Comfortable for everyone else. Predictable. Easy to categorize. If I follow the script—get the degree, land the safe job, marry at the right age, have the right number of kids, post the curated vacation photos, never admit I sometimes cry in my shower—then nobody has to feel awkward. Nobody has to question their own choices. The machine keeps humming.

But what if the machine is boring? What if the script was written by people who were terrified of their own shadow? What if “fitting in” is just another way of saying “quietly dying inside”?

I am not advocating for chaos. I still say please and thank you. Basic decency is not the enemy. The enemy is the quiet tyranny of “this is how it’s done” when “it” no longer fits who you actually are.

I hate being told what to do because I spent too many years doing exactly that and waking up wondering whose life I was living. I hate performative expectations because they turn human connection into a performance review. And I especially hate the way media has turned every single faux pas into a public execution. One off-color political joke, one long distance relationship, one honest opinion and suddenly you are struggling to get followers on social networks.

The irony is that the people quickest to call out faux pas are often the ones most trapped by them. They are not free; they are just better at pretending.

So here is my quiet rebellion: I am going to keep committing the occasional faux pas. Not the cruel ones—never those—but the ones that come from refusing to edit myself for other people’s comfort. I am going to wear the “wrong” outfit, say the “wrong” thing at the “wrong” time, and build a life that looks messy and inconsistent and deeply, unapologetically mine.

Because the real false step is not tripping over some arbitrary social rule.

The real false step is spending your whole life walking someone else’s path so carefully that you forget how to walk your own.

And relearning how to walk has taught me that: I would rather stumble forward in my own Yeezys than glide perfectly in someone else’s shoes.

May 15, 2026
The Rise of Comfort: Embracing the Free-Bra Movement

Remember when getting a bra that actually fit felt like a sacred, slightly humiliating pilgrimage? We would trek to the mall, hearts pounding, ready to surrender our bare chests to a stranger armed with nothing but a measuring tape and a clipboard. Victoria’s Secret was not just a store—it was a temple. And the goddess was that perfectly coiffed sales associate with the tape dangling around her neck.

You would stand there in a tiny fitting room that smelled faintly of vanilla candles and desperation, arms raised while she poked, prodded, lifted, and adjusted. “Okay, honey, breathe out… now inhale… A cup? Or is that a B on a heavy day?” Brassiere itself sounds like industrial equipment. We endured it all for the promise of “lift and separation,” for the illusion of perfect, perky cleavage that could launch a thousand thirsty glances in high school. We contorted our bodies, sucked in our stomachs, and prayed the underwire would make us look like a goddess instead of committing war crimes on our young teenage bodies.

Those were the days.

Fast-forward to now, and the entire ritual has collapsed. I do not even think most women under 36 could tell you their real bra size if you held a gun to their head. We have collectively ghosted the fitting rooms. The measuring tape is an old relic only used by the boys now. Victoria’s Secret angels? Still gorgeous, but we are no longer buying what they are selling—literally.

Instead, we are out here living our best soft-girl lives in cute little bandeaus, buttery-soft sports bras, and those barely-there bralettes that feel like a gentle hug from a cloud rather than a structural engineering project. No more wires digging into our ribs (I have a large ribcage!) like medieval torture devices. No more adjusting straps in public like a nervous tic. We are free-boobing it through Zoom calls, grocery runs, and yes, even date nights if the vibe is right (plus, my man enjoys my itty bittys).

Let’s be real—this shift is not just about laziness. It is a quiet revolution.

Society spent decades telling us our boobs needed to be contained, supported, weaponized. Push-up bras. Minimizer bras. Convertible bras with more hooks than a slasher film. We bought into the lie that comfort was secondary to looking “put together.” All for the boys to pay attention to us. That a proper lady had to have everything strapped down and presented like gift-wrapped perfection.

Then came the pandemic. Sweatpants became uniforms. Loungewear went mainstream. And suddenly, we realized something revolutionary: our boobs do not actually need constant structural support to be valid. They are not structural hazards waiting to collapse. They are just… there. Soft, warm, part of us. And when we stopped squeezing them into unnatural shapes for eight hours a day, the world did not end. In fact, it got better. For me, nothing changed whether there was a pandemic or not. So I was free- boobing before it was “cool”.

A woman enjoys a quiet morning reading a book in a sunlit bedroom.

We discovered the joy of the bandeau—that rebellious little tube top that says, “I’m cute, I’m comfy, and I’m not apologizing for jiggle.” Sports bras that handle actual movement without turning us into armored tanks. Wireless wonders that whisper sweet nothings like, “Girl, breathe.”

And let us talk about the knowledge gap. Ask a group of women their bra size today and watch the panic. “Umm… medium? Whatever fits” We have stopped obsessing over the numbers because the numbers were always a scam anyway. Bra sizing is notoriously inconsistent across brands. One store’s 32C is another’s 34B. It was all smoke, mirrors, and marketing.

Ditching the heavy-duty bra is not just about comfort. It also is about reclaiming ownership of our bodies in a world that has long tried to dictate their shape, size, and presentation. I personally prefer being on the Itty Bitty Titty Committee , but advertisements and media companies love to shove triple Ds and Sydney Sweeney in my face…

We are done performing for the male gaze with engineered cleavage. Done pretending that underwire equals empowerment. The free-boob movement—yes, I am calling it that—feels like the only level of body positivity I accept. It says: my breasts do not need to be edited, lifted, or minimized to be worthy.

Of course, not everyone is on board. Older women clutch their pearls. The fitness bros complain about the materials in said bras. Some days even I miss the old sculpted look, but mostly I love sliding into a soft bralette and feeling like my natural body is enough.

We traded poking and prodding for stretchy, breathable freedom. And I do not think we are going back.

So next time you catch yourself reaching for that lacy, restrictive contraption out of habit, ask yourself: Do I really need this? Or am I just performing femininity from 2007?

Throw on the bandeau. Rock the sports bra. Let them breathe.

May 14, 2026
From Homewrecker to Homemaker.

What is your career plan?

The “It” Girls—the glossy, untouchable, “main character” women who once defined the era—are quietly, deliciously, scandalously… going domestic. Yes, those girls. The ones who used to jet-set to Mykonos in mini dresses, post mirror selfies in vintage Dior, and make “hot girl summer” a global brand. We are now knee-deep in homemade pasta, linen napkins, and 6 a.m. lattes brewed in our own perfectly imperfect kitchens.

This is not your grandmother’s homemaking. This is haute homemaking. Cottagecore on ‘roids and cashmere. The new “It” Girl is not just nesting—she is curating a whole aesthetic religion around it. Think: barefoot in a silk slip dress whisking eggs, filming 45-second reels of her sourdough rising while her engagement ring catches the golden hour light, (🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼). She is not hiding the domestic labor. She is flaunting it because it is the ultimate flex.

Remember the 2010s “It” Girl blueprint? Hustle. Club to boardroom. Rosé all day. Side hustle turned empire (you can still rosè in the kitchen!). Burnout was a badge of honor. “I have not slept in three days but the bag is secure.” We were sold the fantasy that real power looked like never being home long enough to need a vacuum.

I am not someone who claims that the pandemic caused this renaissance. Articles claim that post-pandemic exhaustion hit like a truck and that is why we are choosing to stay home. The “girlboss” script started sounding hollow—lonely hotel rooms, endless content creation, dating apps full of situationships, and a quiet ache that no amount of brand deal could fill. Personally, I see that the same women who once bragged about never cooking (famously Carrie Bradshaw in Sex in the City kept her sweaters in the oven!) are posting stories of them slow-roasting a chicken with rosemary from their windowsill garden.

It is seen as rebellious/ controversial because it is a direct middle finger to the narrative we have been force-fed for decades: domesticity equals oppression. That wanting a beautiful home, a stocked fridge, and a man who comes home to the smell of garlic and love is somehow regressive. The hottest, most followed, most desired women on the planet are proving the opposite—homemaking done right is high-value, high-status, and insanely seductive.

Walk into any cool girl’s apartment in 2026 and you can see it: the Le Creuset Dutch oven in a tasteful color, the vintage rolling pin displayed like art, and of course the sourdough starter. They are not just cooking—they are romanticizing the mundane. Morning dewy skin routines followed by watering herbs. Evening candlelit dinners they actually prepared instead of ordering from some immigrant driver.

This is not tradwife cosplay for the poor. These are women with options. Models. Influencers. Actresses. They could be on yachts in Ibiza but they are choosing farmers’ markets and Sunday roasts. Why? Because it feels good. It feels feminine. It feels like control in a chaotic world.

And let me be brutally honest—the men are losing their minds over it (at least mine is!). There is something primal about watching a beautiful woman who could have the world at her feet choose to pour that energy into creating a sanctuary. It hits different. It is not submission; it is sovereignty. She is not forced into the kitchen. She claimed it as her “queendom.”

Hence, modern career feminism sold women a version of success that left many emotionally bankrupt. The “It” Girls who are “opting in” to homemaking are not rejecting ambition—they are redefining it. They are building empires in the home. We are not anti-work. We are anti-misery.

Of course the purists are furious. “This is anti-feminist!” “You are setting women back!” Meanwhile those same critics are stress-eating takeout alone in their minimalist apartments wondering why their stress is through the roof. The new homemaker “It” Girl does not care. She is too busy teaching her followers how to make the perfect bolognese while looking like a Renaissance painting.

This movement exposes the lie: that fulfillment can only come from cubicles and corner offices. That domestic skills are beneath a “modern woman.” The “It” Girls are proving domesticity—when chosen freely and done beautifully—is one of the ultimate luxuries.

They are not trapped. They are thriving. Soft lighting, slow mornings, real food, real connection. And yes, sometimes a hot husband who worships the ground they walk on because they make the house feel like heaven.

You do not need to quit your job tomorrow. But maybe the “It” Girl homemaker renaissance is permission to stop demonizing the domestic. To light the damn candle. To learn how to roast vegetables everyone asks for the recipe. To make your space so warm and intentional that people feel it the second they walk in.

May 12, 2026