This might as well be a part of ‘My Passion for Nutrition’ series…
Remember the “Horse Paste” Hysteria? Time to Talk Honestly About Parasites and Ivermectin
Back in the chaotic 2020s, when the world felt like it was spinning out of control, one of the strangest battles was the all-out demonization of ivermectin. Labeled everything from “horse paste” to dangerous misinformation, it became a cultural exclamation point. But it is time to step back from the noise: Ivermectin is a legitimate, Nobel Prize-winning antiparasitic medication with a proven track record in human medicine. And yes—there is a broader conversation worth having about whether most of us could benefit from thinking more seriously about parasites in our modern lives.
Discovered from soil bacteria in Japan and developed into a powerful tool against parasites, ivermectin has transformed global health. It paralyzes and kills certain worms and parasites by disrupting their nerve and muscle functions. It earned its discoverers the 2015 Nobel Prize in Physiology or Medicine for its impact on river blindness (onchocerciasis) and lymphatic filariasis—diseases that blinded and debilitated millions.
A petri dish with glowing bacterial colonies under lab conditions
It is incredibly inexpensive to manufacture—estimates put production costs as low as two pennies (I guess you should round up to a full nickel now!) per dose in bulk. Generic versions sell affordably (often under $50–$100 for a treatment course in the US with discounts), which means it does not line Big Pharma’s pockets like patented drugs. Through donation programs, billions of doses have been distributed for free in endemic regions. This accessibility is part of what makes it such a public health success story.
Here is where things get uncomfortable but real. Many of us in developed countries like the US do not wash our hands as thoroughly as we should. Fresh produce (especially organic!) is not always perfectly cleaned. Pets track in dirt, fleas, or other critters. International travel, imported foods, and close contact with others can introduce risks. Thus,intestinal parasites like Giardia, pinworms (Enterobius vermicularis), or others are not unheard of—even in “clean” societies.
I am not here to advocate staring into your toilet bowl (I am a lady, after all).But cleanses can rid us of all the environmental toxins that infiltrate our daily lives.
An artistic portrayal of Earth surrounded by microorganisms and medical symbols, highlighting global health connections.
Ivermectin remains a wonder drug for what it was designed to do. The 2020s taught us many lessons about questioning narratives, but also about respecting evidence-based medicine (even if it does not bring in the big bucks!). Routine cleansing for everyone may be necessary, even for most in sanitary environments. Disease invades those in developed countries. Parasites can also make us ladies act like “lunatics” during full moons (The word “lunatic” comes from Latin luna (moon), reflecting ancient beliefs that the full moon drove people—especially women—mad)…Greater awareness and targeted use of something like Ivermectin is absolutely worth discussing without the {political} drama.
Modern day medicine turned the single most abundant, free, life-giving force on this planet—the magnificent sun—into Public Enemy Number One. Slather on the chemicals, hide indoors like a pasty little gremlin, and for the love of God, never let a single UV ray touch your precious skin. Meanwhile, humanity somehow survived ice ages, plagues, and zero SPF for hundreds of thousands of years without dropping dead from “sun exposure.” Funny how that works.
Our ancestors were not cowering in caves with broad-spectrum lotion and a sun umbrella. They were out there hunting, farming, fucking, and fighting under the blazing sky every single day. Skin cancer? Melanoma? Those numbers stayed relatively quiet until the sunscreen industry exploded onto the scene in the mid-20th century. Suddenly we are all marinating in titanium dioxide smoothies and wondering why skin cancer rates keep climbing.
He looks happy to me!
Do not get me wrong—there are decent mineral-based sunscreens out there that actually reflect the rays instead of turning your skin into a chemical refinery. But the cheap shit most people glob on? That is basically endocrine-disrupting soup with a side of hormone messiness. The kind of goop that probably does more long-term damage than a mild burn ever could. Yet the “experts” keep pushing it like it is holy water while conveniently ignoring the data that does not fit their narrative.
If you really want to see the sun’s power, look at what happens when you actually use it like nature intended. Andrew Huberman (neuroscientist chad who actually talks sense) hammers this constantly: get outside within the first hour of waking and stare at that beautiful bastard in the sky. Not directly—peripheral view only, soak it in. That morning light slams the reset button on your circadian rhythm harder than a triple espresso and a cold plunge combined.
A man enjoys a cup of coffee while sitting in an ice-filled wooden hot tub outdoors.
Your body clock starts firing on all cylinders. Cortisol wakes you up properly instead of that pathetic artificial spike from your phone screen. Melatonin production later at night becomes sharp and clean because you did not spend the whole day hiding from photons like some vitamin D-deficient basement dweller. Low levels of vitamin D is associated with many autoimmune issues and fatigue/ depression. Blue light from lamps and screens at night? That is the real villain, flooding your house- wrecking sleep, mood, and testosterone. But sure, let us keep blaming the sun.
People who get consistent, smart sun exposure report better energy, clearer skin, stronger immune systems, and yes—often better moods. The sun triggers nitric oxide release, helps with blood pressure, boosts mood via serotonin pathways, and is literally the reason you can synthesize vitamin D, which controls everything from bone density to immune regulation to cancer protection. That is right—proper sun exposure is anti-cancer in the bigger picture.
Modern medicine loves a good villain. Cholesterol was the bad guy until it was not . Fat was evil until keto took over. Now it is the sun’s turn to be demonized so they can sell you more pills, creams, and procedures. Meanwhile, populations living closer to the equator with higher natural sun exposure often show lower rates of certain internal cancers and autoimmune issues when their vitamin D levels are optimized. But do not expect that on the evening news.
The real message is not “go get third-degree burns, bro.” It is use your brain. Build tolerance gradually. Get morning light. Get midday sun when your shadow is shorter than you. Cover up or use good mineral protection during peak hours if you are pale if you want . Eat foods that support skin health. Stop treating the sun like a toxic ex when it’s been keeping life on this rock going since day one.
We have become a society of fluorescent-lit, screen-staring, sunscreen-caked weaklingswho are shocked—shocked—that we feel like shit and need SSRIs and sleeping pills. Maybe, just maybe, the glowing ball in the sky that every ancient culture worshipped for a reason is not trying to murder you.
Men used to fight wars, now “men” like Bryan Johnston are hiding from the sun
Get outside. Touch grass. Stare at the sun (responsibly). Feel alive for once.
Your ancestors are laughing at us, wondering what the hell happened to their descendants.
At fifteen years old, I stepped off a plane into a world that felt like it had leaped straight out of a National Geographic. The air was warmer, drier, and carried the faint scent of eucalyptus. I was part of the People to People Ambassador Program, a life-changing opportunity that took a group of wide-eyed American teens halfway around the globe to Australia. What started as a simple cultural exchange trip quickly became a whirlwind of big-city glamour, rugged outback exploration, family-style homestays, and the kind of teenage chaos that only happens when you are far from home and the usual rules do not quite apply (the innocent kind though, not really what we see on teenager television shows).
Our itinerary was perfectly balanced between urban sophistication and raw Australian wilderness. We bounced between the gleaming harbors of Sydney and Melbourne and endless stretches of red earth in the outback. Long bus rides became our moving classrooms—hours spent watching the landscape shift from bustling streets to golden grasslands. We stayed with local families who opened their homes (and hearts) to us, sharing meals, stories, and glimpses into everyday Aussie life that no guidebook could ever capture.
Sydney hit me like a fever dream. The iconic Opera House rose like white sails against the sparkling harbor, its curves even more breathtaking in person than in any photo I had seen. We toured the Olympic facilities from the 2000 Games, walking through stadiums that once echoed with global cheers. I remember standing there, imagining the roar of the crowd, feeling tiny yet somehow part of something enormous.
But beneath the excitement, I carried a heavy secret. This was the year after I started high school, and the pressure to look and be “perfect” had already taken root in my mind. Australia felt like the ultimate reset button—a chance to reinvent myself far from judgmental eyes back home. Before the trip even began, I emailed the volunteer chaperones with a carefully worded note: I would not be eating much, and they should not worry about me. Looking back now, it breaks my heart to think of that determined, insecure fifteen-year-old girl trying so hard to control the one thing she could in a brand-new country.
On those long bus rides, packed lunches were handed out like clockwork—sandwiches thick with deli meats, crisp chips, and sweet treats. I would politely unwrap mine, eat only the apple, and quietly put the rest aside. The volunteers were kind, but I could feel their concerned glances. During our homestay in Melbourne, the warm “mom” of the house cooked a hearty Australian meal just for us. I pushed the plate away after a few bites, murmuring something about being full. Her disappointed but understanding look still lingers with me. Food became both enemy and background noise while the real adventure swirled around me.
Of course, no trip at fifteen would be complete without plenty of youthful mischief. I flirted shamelessly with the boys in our group—stolen glances across bus aisles, whispered jokes during tours, and that electric buzz of first crushes amplified by the freedom of being overseas.
The Australian sun, however, showed no mercy. Wanting to be perfect meant that I wanted golden skin. I ended up severely sunburned. My skin turned lobster-red, peeling in painful sheets for days. Lesson learned: respect the ozone hole Down Under.
One of my biggest hurdles was begging my mother—via crackly payphone calls from a random shopping mall —to let me get my belly button pierced. I pleaded, I reasoned, I dramatically described how “everyone” was doing it. She held firm.
Instead, I settled for a temporary tattoo from a quirky shop near the harbor. It was some butterfly design that I proudly showed off to the group. When I got home, I let everyone believe it was real, basking in the temporary cool factor before it faded in the shower. Small rebellions, big memories.
The real soul of the trip was during our long bus tours through the outback. The landscape stretched endlessly—red dirt, scrubby bushes, and skies so vast they made you feel wonderfully insignificant. We learned about Aboriginal culture, their deep connection to the land, and the stories passed down through oldtime legends.
A vehicle traverses a winding red dirt road through arid outback terrain under a partly cloudy sky
One unforgettable stop was a wildlife sanctuary where I finally got to hold a tiny koala. He was everything I imagined: fluffy gray fur, button eyes, and a sleepy demeanor (apparently they are constantly high from eating the eucalyptus). I beamed for the camera, arms gently cradling him. But internally? I was screaming. Those adorable little claws dug into my arm like tiny needles. Sharp did not even begin to describe it. Still, worth every scratch for that photo and the story.
We spotted kangaroos hopping freely in the wild—elegant, powerful creatures that seemed to defy gravity. At the sanctuary, we got closer, feeding them and watching their curious faces up close. Later, in a remote outback experience hosted by Aboriginal elders, we were treated to kangaroo tail. It was an honor to share in their traditional food. The tail was tough, mostly dense muscle with very little fat or tenderness—chewy, gamey, and completely unlike anything I had eaten before. It was not about gourmet flavor; it was about connection, respect, and tasting a piece of the land itself.
That trip to Australia did not magically fix my insecurities around food and body image. Those battles continued for years as I eventually got down to double digits on the bathroom scale. But it planted seeds of perspective. I saw a country that was both modern and ancient, vibrant and harsh, welcoming and wild. I learned that adventures are messy—full of sunburns, awkward flirtations, hidden struggles, and moments of pure wonder.
Holding that koala, even through the pain, symbolized something bigger: sometimes the cutest, most picture-perfect experiences are actually concealing something painful. Pushing away plates did make me feel more in control; but it also made me miss out on shared meals and hospitality. The temporary tattoo washed off, but the memories never did.
Years later, I look back on that fifteen-year-old girl with compassion. She was brave enough to travel across the world, curious enough to embrace new cultures, and human enough to make mistakes. Australia taught me that life is best experienced fully—sunburns, sharp claws, kangaroo tail, and all.
If you ever get the chance to say yes to an adventure that scares and excites you, justdo it (like Nike!). Whether it is Australia or somewhere closer to home, the outback of your own growth is waiting.
While the normies are out there grinding away on treadmills, choking down kale smoothies, and begging their physicians for another round of statins like good little compliant cattle, a shadow economy of peptides is rewriting the rules of human performance, recovery, and even mortality. These are not your grandma’s collagen powders from the health aisle. These are lab-synthesized chains of amino acids that tell your body to stop acting like a broken-down car and start performing like a war machine.
Peptides are short protein fragments. Sounds boring until you realize they are the cheat code Big Pharma and the supplement bros both desperately ignore. One side calls them “research chemicals” to cover their asses. The other side pretends they do not exist because they cannot patent the fountain of youth and sell it for $200 a pill. All while I call them the middle finger to aging, injury, and the slow, pathetic decline we are all supposed to accept.
Proteins are the big, lumbering construction workers of your body. Peptides are the snipers—tiny, precise signals that flip switches in your cells without the bureaucratic bullshit. Your body makes thousands of them naturally, but modern life—stress, seed oils, blue light, and whatever microplastic cocktail we are all marinating in—has turned those signals into static.
Inject, swallow, or slap on a cream version of the right peptide, and suddenly your body gets very specific instructions: “Heal faster.” “Burn fat like it is 1999.” “Grow more muscle while you sleep.” “Don’t die of inflammation.”
This is no bro-science. It is cold, hard biochemistry that has been weaponized by biohackers, athletes, and the kind of rich weirdos who treat their bodies like experimental Ferraris. The FDA hates it because they cannot control the narrative. Your local gym rat loves it because it works when creatine and chicken breast tap out.
BPC-157 – The ultimate of the peptide world. Derived from a stomach protein Nature already solved gut health; we just stole the cheat sheet. This thing repairs tendons, ligaments, and leaky guts like it. Torn rotator cuff? BPC says “hold my beer.” People are using it off-label for everything from IBS to blown knees, and the recovery stories sound like science fiction. The side effects are the occasional “I feel too good to be legal” vibes.
TB-500 – BPC’s partner in crime. Promotes actin production, which basically means your cells rebuild tissue at warp speed. Bodybuilders swear by it for nagging injuries that would normally sideline them for months. It is like giving your body a “factory reset” button for damage control.
CJC-1295 + Ipamorelin stack – The growth hormone secret without the full roid rage or the $10k-a-month bill. These trick your pituitary into pumping out more of your own natural GH. Result? Deeper sleep, faster fat loss, skin that looks like you sold your soul to a Korean skincare influencer. No water retention bullshit. Just quiet, clean gains that make your bloodwork look like you time-traveled back to age 25.
Semaglutide/Tirzepatide (the Ozempic cousins) – Yeah, the weight-loss drugs everyone is suddenly on. They are peptides too. They do not just suppress appetite; they hack your entire metabolic signaling. The mainstream acts like it was some miracle breakthrough. Biohackers have been stacking peptide versions of this tech for years in the gray market, titrating doses like mad scientists while the normies pay $1,300 a month for the branded version.
Melanotan II – Because why settle for pale and pasty when you can look like you vacation in Mykonos year-round? Tanning, fat loss, and a libido that makes 19-year-old you look like a monk. Side effect: spontaneous boners in public. Worth it.
And that is just the tip of the iceberg. Thymosin alpha-1 for immune hacking. DSIP for sleep that feels like a coma. The list goes on, and the underground forums are full of people turning themselves into optimized freaks while the rest of society argues about seed oils on Reddit.
Do not pretend this is all sunshine and six-packs. Peptides exist in a legal gray zone that makes the Wild West look regulated. Sourcing them means trusting some Chinese lab or a dude in a Discord server who swears his batch is “third-party tested.” Dosing wrong can mess you up in creative ways—hormone crashes, injection site reactions, etc.
The medical establishment screams “dangerous and unproven!” while happily pushing antidepressants that turn people into emotional zombies. Make it make sense. The real risk is not the peptides. It is becoming so optimized that you start looking down on everyone still playing the game on difficult mode.
We are in the middle of the great biohacking schism. One side is still preaching “eat less, move more, die at 78 with dignity” (I live by this!). The other side is quietly extending health span by decades using tools that were “experimental” five years ago. Peptides are not the endgame—they are the gateway drug to gene therapy, senolytics, and whatever longevity tech comes next.
The elites have been on this for years. You think billionaires look 20 years younger because of kale? Please. The plebs get Ozempic commercials. The players get custom peptide stacks delivered in discreet packaging.
You gonna keep waiting for “more studies” while your telomeres shorten? Or are you gonna do the research, find a reputable source, and start hacking the meat suit before it hacks you?
The peptides are already here. The future doesn’t give a shit about your comfort zone.
Every single afternoon, after the nap my body demands like a stubborn toddler, I film myself walking. It is only about ten feet. To most people, that probably looks like nothing at all. But to me, those ten feet are everything. A step closer. They are proof that I am still moving forward—literally—one brave, wobbly step at a time. It feels incredible.
My days start brutally early. I am up at 4 a.m., already chasing the version of myself I desire. By the time lunch is over, my body is spent from the morning’s workout and the constant grind of rehabilitation. My eyes grow heavy, my muscles scream for mercy, and I surrender to the bed like a little baby who earned her nap time. I used to fight it, but I learned to listen. The nap is not weakness; it is fuel. When I wake up an hour or two later, something magical happens. Energy surges back. Determination reignites. And suddenly I am excited—actually excited—to challenge myself again.
That is when I head to the back deck.
I strap on my brace even though I hate it. Most days I go without, stubborn as hell, refusing any device that reminds me I am not “normal” yet. But when I am about to push my limits, safety first applies (*eye roll*). The deck has a sturdy railing on one side—my own private parallel bar. I used to grip it at first, today I just walk along it slowly, no longer feeling the wood warm under my palm. At the end of the railing, I just stand there, working on my balance. Feet planted, core engaged, eyes focused on a spot in the distance (the heating lamp usually). The world narrows to that single task: don’t fall.
I film every attempt. Sometimes it is a clean walk. Sometimes it is shaky. First, my left (weak) leg pushes forward. That is the easy one. I do not need balance or strength help on this side, but then I have to shift onto this weak side and move my right leg forward. Sometimes the left side refuses to hold me up. Sometimes I end up on the ground. I have fallen more times than I can count out there—head cracking against the deck, shoulder slamming into the wall. Each bruise is a story. Each tumble is data.
I send the videos to my boyfriend anyway. I do not even know if he is watching them but the simple act of having an audience changes everything. It turns a lonely struggle into a performance. It makes me bolder. I love showing off for him. There is something powerful about letting the person you love witness your rawest, most determined moments.
I remember the early days when I had to clutch that railing for dear life, knuckles white, heart pounding. Letting go felt terrifying—like stepping off a cliff (hence why I wear my brace out there— in case my weak side refuses to hold me upright). But I did it anyway. Because I want this more than I fear the falls. I want to walk across a room without thinking. I want to stroll through a park holding his hand instead of a cane or brace. I want zero differentiation between me and everyone else. No explanations. No pitying glances. Just me, moving through the world the way I used to—freely, confidently, joyfully.
This recovery is not linear. Some days the ten feet feel like a marathon. Other days I surprise myself and push for more. The falls rarely happen anymore , but they sting a little less because I know they are temporary. Every time I stand back up, dust myself off, and hit record again, I am rewriting my story.
Small steps matter. Naps are not laziness; they are strategy. Now I see that my stubborn refusal to stay down is beautiful. I keep filming. Keep showing off. Keep chasing the version othat refuses to be defined by limitations.
I am not there yet. But every afternoon, after my nap, I get a little closer. Ten feet at a time.
And it feels amazing.
I am already dreaming bigger—longer distances, no railing, maybe even a real walk around the block. I will keep sharing the journey here, bruises and all.
This morning I was leaning on the counter like a zombie in my kitchen, waiting for the espresso machine to spit out liquid salvation, when my eyes land on it: a shiny new jar of melatonin pills, perched innocently next to the vitamins like it was just another harmless little health hack. Boom. Instant flashback to that Huberman Lab episode that my man and I devoured years ago. Your body already makes melatonin. It is this beautiful, natural hormone your pineal gland pumps out when the sun dips and your circadian rhythm says “lights out, bitch.” Pop a supplement and you are not “helping” sleep—you are straight-up telling your brain, “Nah, I got this from the factory now, you can stop producing the real stuff.” Congrats, you have just trained your own biology to go on strike.
And yeah, I am that person who deeply despises every single unnatural aid cooked up by Big Pharma. Those greedy corporate vampires do not give a damn about your actual health; they are too busy counting cash while you swallow side effects that make the original problem look cute. Groggy mornings? Check. Hormone chaos? Check. Dependency that turns you into a walking zombie who cannot sleep without their chemical crutch? Double check. Is it really worth it? For what—maybe shaving off ten extra minutes of tossing and turning? Hard pass. I would rather stare at the ceiling counting conspiracy theories than hand my sleep over to the same people who brought us opioid epidemics and “trust the science” campaigns that aged like milk.
Look, I am not pretending I am some flawless sleeper. Some nights my brain decides 1 a.m. is the perfect time to freak out about my life. I have tried the classic “count sheep” method and somehow ended up at 1,000 because my brain would not turn off. Absolutely pathetic . But here is the thing I have learned the hard way: it is not about the sheep, the pills, or even how many hours you are actually logging. It is about your routine and the ruthless power of your mindset.
Every single day after lunch I crash for a nap like it is my duty. Is it because I am magically fixing some sleep debt? Nah. It is the ritual. The signal to my brain that says, “We’ve got this handled, queen.” And that is where the real happens.
I dug into this wild study on PubMed (yeah, the actual peer-reviewed one, not some social media “sleep guru” nonsense): “Placebo Sleep Affects Cognitive Functioning.” Researchers straight-up gaslit people about their sleep quality using fake data—told half of them they had amazing REM sleep and the other half they had garbage sleep. The group told they slept like champions crushed cognitive tests—faster processing, sharper attention, better everything—even if their actual sleep was trash. The “bad sleep” group tanked, even when they had actually rested fine. So stop strapping on those dorky looking smart watches/ rings.
Mindset is not some woo-woo buzzword. It is the cheat code. Your brain decides how wrecked (or unstoppable) your day is going to be way more than the raw hours on the clock. Big Pharma wants you chasing pills because pills = repeat customers. Your brain wants you to own the narrative: “I slept like shit but I’m still running this day.” That placebo effect? It is not fake—it is proof that perception is king. I am not saying ignore real insomnia or medical issues (talk to a real doctor, not Dr. Google). But for the average “I scroll social media till 2 a.m. and wonder why I’m tired” crowd? Ditch the jar. Build the routine. Tell your brain it is the boss, not some synthetic hormone from a lab that treats your pineal gland like it is optional.
So I guess I will take my espresso, my post-lunch nap ritual, and the smug satisfaction of knowing my own brain is running the show. Sleep poorly? Sure. But I refuse to let it own me.
Your move, sheeple. The revolution will not be supplemented.
In a world obsessed with the latest superfoods and wellness trends, sometimes the best ingredients are the oldest ones. Beef tallow—rendered beef fat—has been used for centuries in cooking, skincare, and household goods. Today, it is experiencing a resurgence as people seek natural, stable alternatives to highly processed seed oils. Whether you are a home cook, skincare enthusiast, or simply curious about traditional fats, beef tallow deserves a spot in your pantry (and maybe your beauty routine).
Beef tallow is the rendered (melted and purified) fat from beef, typically from suet (the hard fat around the kidneys and loins) or trimmings. When rendered properly, it becomes a creamy, white-to-pale-yellow solid at room temperature that melts easily for cooking.
Its fatty acid profile includes a mix of saturated fats (like palmitic and stearic acid), monounsaturated fats (like oleic acid), and some polyunsaturated fats. It also naturally contains fat-soluble vitamins A, D, E, and K, especially when sourced from grass-fed cattle.
Before vegetable oils dominated supermarket shelves in the 20th century, tallow was a kitchen staple. Ancient Egyptians, Greeks, and Romans used it for skincare and soaps. Traditional cooks relied on it for frying, baking, and preserving food due to its stability.
Fast food chains like McDonald’s famously fried French fries in beef tallow until the 1990s for superior flavor and crispiness. Sounds amazing, right?! Now, as concerns about ultra-processed oils grow, tallow is back on menus and in home kitchens.
A tablespoon of beef tallow provides about 115 calories, mostly from fat. It is stable at high heat and contains no trans fats when rendered cleanly. Grass-fed versions offer more conjugated linoleic acid (CLA) and vitamins.
Potential benefits:
High smoke point (around 400°F/204°C), making it excellent for frying without breaking down into harmful compounds.
Rich flavor that enhances savory dishes.
May support skin barrier function when used topically due to fatty acids.
Beef tallow excels in high-heat applications:
Frying: Crispy French fries, chicken, or fish and chips with restaurant-quality results.
Searing: Perfect crust on steaks or burgers.
Roasting: Toss vegetables or potatoes for golden, flavorful sides.
Baking: Use in pie crusts, biscuits, or cookies for flakiness and subtle richness.
It adds a savory depth that vegetable oils cannot match.
I have not personally tried it (yet ), but tallow’s composition closely mimics human skin oils, making it a popular natural moisturizer. Fans report it helps with dryness, eczema, and even acne for some due to its non-comedogenic properties in pure form. It can be used as a balm, lip moisturizer, or base for DIY soaps and candles.
Beef tallow represents a return to whole, traditional foods. It is versatile, flavorful, and nutrient-dense when used thoughtfully. Source it from reputable, grass-fed suppliers for the best quality, and enjoy it as part of a balanced diet.
Whether you are frying up dinner or soothing dry skin, this “liquid gold” might just become your new kitchen (and bathroom) essential.
In the whirlwind of modern life, where days blur between deadlines, workouts, and endless to-do lists, my boyfriend and I have carved out a sacred little sanctuary each afternoon. After powering through afternoon gym sessions—and once the work emails have finally been answered (by him), I take my afternoon shower and settle down with my MacBook…Lights dimmed, blankets/ sweatshirt draped just so and the show waiting for me to delve into (hopefully we will do this with a couple of glasses of wine someday soon!).
This is our time to disconnect from the chaos and plug into something that feels both entertaining and enriching. This past week, our nightly ritual transported us back to the glittering, tragic world of the Kennedy family with a captivating streaming documentary series focused on John F. Kennedy Jr. and his whirlwind romance with Carolyn Bessette (Love Story on Hulu).
Our routine is simple but intentional. By the time the sun dips below the horizon, we have earned this pause. Exercise clears the mental fog, work gives him purpose, and then… release. We dim the lights, queue up the show, and for about an hour , the outside world fades. No scrolling social media (well…. Occasionally), no multitasking. Just us, the story unfolding, and the occasional pause to chat about what we are watching. It has become our favorite way to reconnect after busy days—sharing laughs, theories, and those “wait, did that really happen?” moments that make history feel alive.
This last week’s choice was particularly mesmerizing: a deep-dive documentary chronicling the life of JFK Jr., the golden boy of American royalty, and his intense, fairytale-like love story with Carolyn Bessette. Carolyn was not some “random girl”—she was a stylish, former publicist at Calvin Klein, the kind of woman whose effortless New York cool turned heads in the fashion world long before she stepped into the spotlight as a Kennedy. She plays the hard-to-get game and follows “The Rules”—like I did when I first met him.
I could not help comparing the two. A man who is simultaneously a boy who needs a woman to rescue him (like Edward in Pretty Woman). He craves for a soulmate to hold his hand through his traumatic past. It was full of dramatic recreations of history to paint a portrait of two people who found each other amid the blinding flash of fame.
What struck us most was how the series humanized them. John F. Kennedy Jr.—“John-John” to the world—grew up in the shadow of his father’s assassination, America’s Camelot dream, and relentless media scrutiny. He was the handsome, charming magazine publisher (George magazine) who could have coasted on his name but chose ambition and adventure instead: piloting planes, kayaking dangerous waters, and searching for something real. Enter Carolyn, a Calvin Klein insider known for her icy-blonde elegance, razor-sharp intellect, and quiet confidence. Their meeting in the ‘90s New York scene was electric from the start. The documentary does not shy away from the messiness—the paparazzi chases, the strain of constant public eyes, the pressures of blending her low-key fashion life with his high-profile legacy. She gave up her job (and seemingly her life) for him. And she was constantly criticized for it by her normie family members.
We were glued to the screen as it explored their secret courtship, the whirlwind 1996 wedding on a tiny island off Georgia (Cumberland Island, with its rustic charm and zero media seclusion), and the honeymoon phase that looked picture-perfect from afar. But the show also delves into the harder truths: the tabloid frenzy that followed them everywhere (and how this very frenzy killed Princess Diana), rumors of relationship strains, Carolyn’s discomfort with the spotlight, and the tragic end that still feels surreal decades later—their fatal 1999 plane crash off Martha’s Vineyard.
The producers did an excellent job balancing the glamour with the grit, showing how love can be both a sanctuary and a casualty of fame.
Watching it together sparked so many conversations between us. We would pause and debate: How would we handle that level of intrusion? What does it say about privacy in the age of influencers and 24/7 news? My boyfriend, ever the history buff, pointed out parallels to today’s celebrity culture—how little has changed since the ‘90s in terms of media obsession. I loved the fashion details; Carolyn’s minimalist, sleek style (think slip dresses, oversized sunglasses, and that iconic wedding gown by Narciso Rodriguez) still influences runways and Pinterest boards today. It made us reflect on our own relationship—grateful for the quiet normalcy we share, the ability to just be without cameras flashing.
Beyond the romance, the series touched on broader Kennedy lore: glimpses of Jackie O.‘s influence, the weight of the family name, and John’s quest to forge his own path. It was never just a love story; it was a meditation on legacy, loss, and the price of being “American royalty.” By the final episode, we were both a little misty-eyed, discussing how stories like this remind us to cherish the present.
Our nightly shows have become more than entertainment—they are little windows into other worlds that make our own feel richer. Whether it is his beloved historical documentaries or something romantic —our exercises crushed, (his) work conquered, and stories that linger long after the credits roll.
My advice is to pair this show with your own unwind ritual: maybe some cozy socks, a charcuterie board, (or a nut butter snack?!) or just the comfort of someone you love beside you.
When I was young, I was obsessed with Britney Spears (another basic bitch tendency). I know today she is a total mess, but there was a time when my walls were covered in pictures of her—I was straight-up obsessed with Britney Spears. The one with the flat stomach, tiny outfits, and that “Hit Me Baby One More Time” schoolgirl fantasy that made every pre-teen’s hormones go haywire.
My bedroom walls were a full-on Britney shrine. Posters from floor to ceiling, magazine cutouts taped up in my closet. I wanted to be her — that perfect blend of innocent and filthy, the girl every guy wanted and every girl secretly envied. People definitely thought I was a lesbian back then. I mean, can you blame them? I was plastering my room with images of a half-naked pop princess.
And yes, I took it to the extreme. During the darkest days of my eating disorder, I followed her old workout routine religiously. Twelve hundred sit-ups a day. That was my way of insuring that I was working off every calorie I was forced to eat. No exaggeration. I would lie on my living room floor, starving, counting every crunch while imagining my stomach getting as flat and tight as hers. (Sometimes it would be until two in the morning and then I would be up at six). That kind of obsession is not cute — it is unhinged. But at the time it felt like devotion. Britney was my thinspiration, my goddess, my unattainable fuck-you to my own body.
Then eighth grade hit and I had a full personality 180. I ditched the pop princess fantasy and became the ultimate “surfer girl.” Still skinny, but not glitzy and glamorous. You know the type — sun-bleached hair, golden skin (spray on tans FTW), that effortless, just-fucked beach vibe. I traded in my old wardrobe for head-to-toe Abercrombie & Fitch and Hollister. I lived in those graphic tees and low-rise jeans that sat dangerously on my hip bones. I wanted to look like I just rolled out of a beach bonfire with sand still in my hair and saltwater on my skin.
I begged my parents to send me to surfing camp in California. I actually went all the way to Australia chasing that fantasy life. I studied the skinny beach bum girls like they were my new religion — the ones with long, tangled blonde hair, tiny bikini bodies, and that lazy, seductive way they carried themselves. I dyed my hair with platinum blonde streaks and spent hours perfecting the windswept look. I wanted to be the girl guys stared at while I walked down the beach carrying a surfboard, all tan legs and collarbones.
This was right in the middle of my most extreme anorexic era, too. The thinner I got, the better my “surfer girl” costume fit. My hip bones jutted out, my thighs did not touch, and my stomach was concave enough to make those Abercrombie shorts hang just right. I was starving myself into the aesthetic. Every wave I caught, every mile I ran, every skipped meal was part of the transformation. I was not just playing dress-up — I was trying to disappear into this fantasy version of myself: blonde, effortless, desired, and dangerously thin.
Looking back, it was wild how seamlessly I went from worshipping Britney’s polished, sexy pop-star body to chasing the raw, sun-drenched, barely-there surfer chick fantasy. Both versions of me were starving — literally and figuratively — for the same thing: to be wanted. To be the fantasy. To be the girl that made people lose their minds a little.
I chased that high hard. From bedroom Britney dances to riding waves, bleaching my hair until it snapped, and counting every single sit-up like it would bring me closer to perfection.
Those years were intense, messy, desperate for attention, and strangely formative.
You all know that I am obsessed with organic foods. My distrust of the food industry runs deep—processed junk loaded with seed oils, additives, and mystery chemicals that wreck our metabolism, hormones, and energy. I believe in choosing clean, supportive fuel that helps our bodies thrive rather than fight constantly. Today, I want to apply that same scrutiny to everything I put in or on my body.
But clothes? For the longest time, I gave them a pass. Sure, I knew polyester was basically plastic—petroleum-derived trash that is cheap to produce and insanely profitable for brands. They just slap a high price tag on something made from recycled water bottles while our skin pays the real cost. (Hence why I never bought into recycling!)
I understood it traps heat, does not breathe, and sheds microplastics everywhere. But I shrugged it off. I was always a fashionista at heart. As long as I looked good for pictures, I did not care about what I was doing to my health. Until recently.
Polyester (and its synthetic counterparts like nylon, spandex, and acrylic) is not just uncomfortable. It is problematic for health, especially hormones. These fabrics are loaded with or treated using endocrine-disrupting chemicals: phthalates, BPA, antimony, PFAS “forever chemicals,” and more. When you sweat, move, or just wear them all day, these can leach onto your skin and get absorbed, especially during workouts or in warm conditions.
They mimic estrogen, mess with thyroid function, progesterone balance, fertility, and more. Microplastics shed with every wash and wear (hundreds of thousands per load) end up in our water, air, dust, and eventually our bodies. Research links this chronic exposure to inflammation, metabolic issues, and hormonal chaos—the exact opposite of the pro-metabolic, high-energy life I am going for.
It is the clothing version of eating ultra-processed junk. Brands love it because it is dirt cheap and durable in a “will not biodegrade for 200+ years” kind of way. We are literally strapping plastic to our bodies for convenience and aesthetics.
I used to roll my eyes at hemp, organic cotton, linen, and similar natural fabrics. They screamed crunchy granola, hipster vibes—flowy dresses, scratchy textures, and overpriced “ethical” lines that felt more performative than practical.
Until now.
After digging deeper (and begging my boyfriend to let me try some pieces), I get it. These are not hippie relics; they are superior, science-backed upgrades that align perfectly with a distrust-the-industry, body-honoring lifestyle.
Hemp: Incredibly durable (stronger and longer-lasting than cotton), naturally antimicrobial and UV-protective, breathable, and softens with wear. It requires minimal water/pesticides to grow, improves soil, and is biodegradable. Feels cooling and fresh—perfect for everyday wear without the plastic sweat-trap.
Organic Cotton: Soft, hypoallergenic, breathable. No toxic pesticides or GMOs like conventional cotton. Gentle on sensitive skin and does not hold onto odors or bacteria like synthetics.
Linen (from flax): The ultimate summer fabric—highly breathable, moisture-wicking, and antibacterial. It gets softer over time and has a beautiful, lived-in drape that looks effortlessly chic now, not dated.
These fabrics support your body’s natural regulation: better temperature control, less irritation, no chemical leaching. They biodegrade instead of polluting forever. And once you experience how they feel—light, non-clingy, skin-friendly—you will never go back.
This doesn’t mean overnight wardrobe overhaul or spending thousands.
Start small— like making sure your loungewear and whatever you spend most time wearing is natural. Read labels! I will no longer have my man buy me a date outfit that is made of plastic no matter how cute (because it will make me cold and uncomfortable), but I still wear leggings every day for my workouts so we have work to do!
It feels empowering, just like choosing ripe fruit, fresh dairy, and avoiding PUFAs. Your skin, hormones, and peace of mind will thank you.
Kat’s Musings 