I have finally accepted the unsexy truth that every travel brochure, Instagram reel, and mid-century movie tried to hide: the place itself is mostly irrelevant. It can be a five-star suite overlooking the Mediterranean or a shitty hotel. What actually registers is whether the person you love is standing next to you when you go through the door.
A couple shares a warm embrace atop cliffs overlooking a glowing sunset over the ocean.
I love traveling with my man. Even just staying in hotels in our own hometowns. Not the soft, pastel version of “love” that sells couples’ retreats. The real kind—where any new experience becomes sharper because he is there. New food, new streets, new chaos. I watch his face light up when something unexpected hits, and that look alone makes the entire trip worth it. The destination can be mediocre; his excitement is not. It is the only metric that still works.
But safety has to sit at the table now. I want to show him pieces of France—the France that still lives in my head from old Audrey Hepburn films, all cigarette smoke, black dresses, and effortless glamour. That version is mostly gone. It is all homeless immigrants now. What is left is more complicated, more tense, and less willing to play along with the fantasy. The French Riviera still holds the top spot in my ranking, mostly out of stubborn nostalgia and residual beauty, (plus lounging pool/ beach side so that we can look sexy in our swimsuits trumps all), but even there the calculus has changed. You do not get to pretend the old postcard still exists without checking the fine print.
Cabo 2025
There is the part I hate admitting out loud: my own body and the limits it brings. Accessibility is not a buzzword when you are the one calculating elevators, distances, fatigue, and whether a charming cobblestone street or sandy beach is about to become a personal obstacle course. I refuse to turn into the logistical problem of the trip. I do not want him carrying extra weight—literal or emotional—because I insisted on a destination that looks better in photographs than it functions in real life. Being a burden is not romantic. It is just exhausting for everyone involved.
Coffee and travel essentials set on a rustic table overlooking alpine mountains
So the plan keeps getting rewritten. Fewer grand gestures, more honest ones. Fewer places chosen for their reputation, more chosen for the simple fact that we can actually move through them without one of us pretending everything is fine. The map still matters a little. The company matters a lot more. And the quiet calculation of “can we both enjoy this without someone suffering in silence” matters most of all.
I will still go almost anywhere with him. I just will not pretend the world is the same postcard it used to be, or that my body is an afterthought. The excitement in his eyes is still worth the ticket [that he buys]. Everything else has to earn its place.
Maybe we could travel by luxury cruise ship? The idea of experiencing the French Riviera, island-hopping in the Maldives, exploring Italy, and even discovering parts of our own country—Alaska, Hawaii, South Carolina, and Florida, where no cruise is needed—excites me more than anything.
The Ocean Embrace cruise ship sails near a scenic coastline during sunset.
An aura is not some pastel Instagram filter floating around your head. In the spiritual sense, an aura is often described as a subtle energy field or luminous glow surrounding a living being (especially a person), object, or place. Believers claim it reflects a person’s emotional, mental, physical, or spiritual state and can appear in different colors, each supposedly carrying symbolic meaning. Thus, it is a shifting energy field that announces whether you are dangerous, magnetic, exhausted, or about to lose it. Sensitive people feel it. Animals react to it. Most humans just call it a “vibe” and move on.
A silhouette filled with swirling galaxies stands against a starry night sky.
A camera does not effectively convey that vibe. It is a light-hungry machine hardwired for the visible spectrum and nothing else. Photons in, pixels out. Your biofield, electromagnetic signature, soul-static—whatever you want to call the invisible electricity that makes you you—doesn’t register. The lens is not broken. It is just not built for the real data. Only experiencing someone in the real world captures the aura and vibe.
A silhouetted figure stands surrounded by vibrant, colorful energy waves in a dimly lit room.
In real life, you are a full-spectrum event: micro-expressions, temperature shifts, the subtle pressure of your presence expanding or collapsing the room. Your nervous system is constantly broadcasting and receiving. A photograph freezes one thin, dead slice of reflected light and throws the rest in the trash.
That is why you hate most pictures of yourself. It is not insecurity. It is pattern recognition. The image captured the meat puppet and left the operator out of frame. You are looking at evidence of your own absence.
Every once in a while a shot hits different—golden hour, pure chaos, someone laughing hysterically. The candid moments are usually the best photographs, since they actually show your “essence.”Those images carry residual charge because the moment was so loud the camera could not completely murder it. Some photographers try to “charge” their work with intention or ritual. Adorable. But this still does not put your actual aura on the sensor. It just makes your corpse look slightly warmer.
The gap between you and your photograph is not a technical failure. It is a brutal reminder: the most interesting parts of being human refuse to be archived. Your aura is a living current. A photo is a freeze-dried souvenir. One is dangerous and alive. The other is safe enough to post.
A vintage family photo radiates colorful magical energy on a wooden table
So next time a picture of you feels like a stranger wearing your face, do not delete it in shame. Look at it, smirk, and remember—the real version of you was never dumb enough to get trapped inside a lens in the first place.
You are still out here, uncaptured, and probably judging the photos that tried to pass off as you.
A bustling beach day contrasted with a quiet evening reading by the fire
My early years were pure, unfiltered chaos — the kind that would get a kid checked on today. My parents and I traveled the globe like it was our personal playground. No five-star resorts or curated “experiences.” Just raw movement. My father had this mountain bike with a little seat rigged to the back, and I would perch there like a tiny, curious creature , wind whipping my face while he pedaled through foreign cities. I could not even reach the pedals, but I was along for the ride anyway. That was me: five years old, zero fear, maximum adventure.
And yeah, I wasincredibly promiscuous. Do not clutch your pearls — I am not talking anything illegal or tragic, just the raw, unashamed chaos of a feral kid who had not yet internalized society’s shame software. I would flirt with strangers in markets, wrote love letters to my classmates, and I even had a little boyfriend who I was constantly kissing and laying naked with. I collected attention like currency. I especially did not believe in boundaries. I was a walking diplomatic incident in pigtails. From little boys, grown men and even a girl cousin. I was living proof that toddlers can be absolute heathens if you let them.
A hiker holds an illuminated compass while overlooking rugged mountains at sunset.
Fast-forward to now, and holy shit, the contrast is brutal. I still chase adventure, but it is domesticated. I demolish raw meat and fish, organs and I still fantasize about packing a bag and disappearing. The itch is there. But the execution is different now. I am a homebody now, and it feels almost traitorous to admit. The girl who once rode shotgun on a mountain bike across continents now dreams of becoming his housewife. Not in some tradwife cosplay way for clout, but genuinely. Apron on, dinner simmering, waiting for the door to open so I can hand him a drink and melt into that quiet, possessive domestic bliss. Something that I got a little taste of this last week.
Life happened I guess. Adulthood installs its updates whether you want them or not. Never mind the disability that has shackled me to the house. The same kid who thrived on constant motion discovered that true comfort can be found in one well-chosen address. The promiscuity died somewhere along the way — not with shame, exactly, but with the realization that cheap thrills and scattered attention leave you hollow. I traded the dopamine hits of “everyone likes me” for something deeper, rarer, and way more dangerous: wanting to belong to one person so completely it rewires your entire operating system.
A steaming cup of coffee and a journal sit on a wooden desk by a window overlooking a stormy ocean.
I still get the urge to book a one-way ticket and vanish. I used to scroll through flight deals like a junkie. But then I picture coming home to him — the house smelling like whatever chaotic fusion dish I attempted that day, laundry folded (badly), me barefoot in the kitchen wearing nothing but his oversized shirt. That fantasy hits harder than any passport stamp ever did. The bike seat on the back of father’s mountain bike taught me motion. Adulthood taught me anchorage. And weirdly, I am greedy for both.
Ultimately, I guess I am out here living this schizophrenic existence: still ordering the rarest thing on the menu, still plotting future escapes, but happiest when I am nesting. The former global toddler slut has been tamed — not by force, but by choice. And if that makes me basic or boring or a walking contradiction, fine. I will own it while I perfect his favorite recipe and secretly plan my next chaotic food order.
The adventure did not die. It just moved inside the house, put on an apron, and started calling one man “home.”
In a world overflowing with noise, division, and endless hot takes, I made a deliberate choice to shape my X (formerly Twitter) experience around what truly matters to me. My entire account is now intentionally curated to reflect my personal beliefs and, above all, to center positivity.
A smartphone displaying ‘Calm & Connected’ held amid swirling fire and smoke effects
I want my feed to uplift, inspire, and align with the kind of life I am actively building—one rooted in growth, joy, healing, and possibility. That does not mean I live in a bubble or ignore reality. It simply means I am protective of my mental and emotional space.
Yes, I do follow a handful of accounts that could be described as strong Trump supporters—people who sometimes come across as riding the “Trump can do no wrong” wave. I am fully aware of the echo-chamber risk there. I approach them with the same healthy skepticism I apply to sports accounts, news outlets, or any single-source content. I do not take everything at face value, and I cross-reference when something feels off.
I am not on X primarily for political analysis or to debate policy. I am there to be inundated with feel-good positivity and reminders of the lifestyle I crave—wellness, personal development, meaningful connections, beauty, humor, and inspiration. Those accounts, even with their strong biases, often deliver bursts of optimism, patriotism, or motivational energy that resonate with the uplifting vibe I want more of.
At the end of the day, social media should serve you—not drain you, enrage you, or pull you into endless negativity loops. I have unfollowed, muted, and blocked enough accounts to create a space that feels like a warm, intentional garden rather than a battlefield.
A smartphone displaying a vibrant mix of blooming garden plants and succulents
My feed is not perfect, and it is not meant to be a complete reflection of the world. It is a reflection of the world I am choosing to create for myself. One post, one follow, and one boundary at a time.
Some of my favorite social media follows are:
A hand holding a smartphone displaying an abstract swirling light pattern
@PeytonElroy : a wellness and spiritual healing-focused account with over 61,000 followers. Setting a consistent tone of optimism, empowerment, and alternative health perspectives, Peyton posts a mix of personal stories (especially her father’s recent stage 4 colon cancer “healing” journey). and practical health tips (e.g., hibiscus tea for inflammation, dates for heart rhythm stabilization via potassium, broccoli sprouts, blueberries, soursop). I particularly love the spiritual/energy concepts (auras, emotional states influencing physical health, colors affecting energy, the idea that everyone is inherently “spiritual”) and relationship/life advice (e.g., how to stand out when approaching beautiful women by complimenting non-physical traits).The tone is warm, encouraging, and emoji-heavy (lots of hearts, flowers, and green tones). Posts often include disclaimers like “I’m not claiming this cures cancer alone” while sharing strong opinions and anecdotes. Recent content has leaned heavily into cancer discussions—viewing it as inflammation, potentially linked to parasites or trauma, with emphasis on mindset, diet, and natural compounds rather than fear-based conventional narratives (my own personal belief).
@mtnhousewife (Mountain Housewife🏠) is a Christian homemaking and traditional marriage account run by a 41-year-old wife, mother, grandmother (“mimi”), and homemaker. Her posts promote biblical womanhood, wifely submission, contentment, and practical homemaking. Key themes include: Covenant marriage — Long-term harmony through scriptural roles (e.g., she highlights 42 years of marriage with “no conflict” due to submission as taught in scripture), Christian living — Bible study reflections (e.g., Philippians on contentment), faith encouragement, and church life, Homemaking — Simple recipes and tips (e.g., okra dishes, pimiento cheese). The tone is gentle, grateful, and encouraging, aimed at women seeking traditional roles. She emphasizes joy in submission, building a happy home, and living out a wife’s calling according to Christian principles. Content mixes personal testimony, scripture, practical advice, and light community interaction.
Maneesha (@ManeeshaSem) is a popular writer, content creator, and self-described “moonbathing apsarā” (celestial nymph) on X, with over 71,000 followers. @maneeshasem has built a significant following through poetic, feminine, and spiritually infused posts that emphasize beauty, serenity, nervous system regulation, self-love, and creating “paradise on Earth.” Her content blends mysticism, aesthetics, wellness, and gentle life philosophy, often evoking softness, harmony, and divine femininity. She frequently shares visions of serene villas, lush nature, silk robes, self-care rituals (e.g., affirmations, chocolate-covered strawberries, vanilla chai), intentional beauty, and protective auras created by harmonious environments. @maneeshasem posts focus on holding calm energy, avoiding urgency/dysregulation, beauty as spiritual protection, and aligning with cosmic/natural rhythms.
@wolffdew (The Cooking Lady) is a Danish 22-year-old homemaker and from-scratch cooking content creator on X.She shares homemade recipes, cooking videos/processes, meal ideas, and everyday kitchen content with a warm, enthusiastic style. Posts often feature scratch cooking, traditional or comforting dishes, and personal touches as a young married woman. She promotes her two digital cookbooks directly in her bio. The account appeals to fans of simple, authentic home cooking, Scandinavian influences, and lifestyle content from a Gen Z homemaker perspective. It’s positive, food-focused, and interactive, with frequent replies to followers.
@amandaperera (Cleopatra 🪷 ✞) is a faith-centered self-improvement and relationship advice account on X with a strong emphasis on personal growth, emotional intelligence, and Christian values. The account mixes inspirational quotes, relationship insights, personal reflections, and calls to subscribe to her newsletter or book 1:1 sessions. It appeals to audiences interested in faith-based personal development, neuroscience-informed emotional health, and mature views on love and identity. Content is positive, relational, and growth-oriented rather than purely dating-strategy focused.This account is warm, empowering, and reflective. Posts often explore:
Healthy relationships and love dynamics (e.g., references to Yellowstone’s Rip and Beth as an ideal of a strong man supporting a fiery, intelligent woman; the importance of entering relationships as a “whole” person rather than seeking fulfillment from a partner).
Self-acceptance, authenticity, and resilience (e.g., disagreement as a sign of staying true to yourself; embracing your “weird” side).
Faith-first mindset (“Jesus first always”), emotional wholeness, and devotional partnership.al advice, and light community interaction.
@TrinaNuance (Trina Nuance || The Fractional Muse 🌿🌞🌊) is slightly different than my other follows. She is thoughtful writer, coach, and strategist with a philosophical, introspective style focused on personal growth, mindset, entrepreneurship, and human behavior. Trina shares long-form reflections, threads, and insights on: Self-awareness & transformation — Dark night of the soul, breaking self-sabotaging cycles, shifting from external to internal locus of control, and authoring new self-fulfilling prophecies., Parasocial relationships, narrative-building, perception biases, and cultural shifts (e.g., craving analog experiences like handwritten letters). Her tone is wise, empathetic, and nuanced — often weaving personal experience, client stories, and cultural observations. She positions herself as a bridge between worlds (e.g., founders building in the dark, inner work vs. business goals) with a creative, almost poetic voice. Content resonates with introspective entrepreneurs, creators, and those on personal development journeys. It is more reflective/strategic than purely motivational or tactical.
The wellness industrial complex has it wrong. While everyone else is out here microdosing mushrooms and journaling their feelings, my boyfriend and I have discovered the ancient, time-tested secret to actually enjoying this ridiculous existence: popping bottles like the world owes us a party. And it kind of does.
Every single time we get to steal a few days together in this soul-crushing timeline, we treat it like the main event (I still remember how loudly I celebrated when he uncorked our first bottle!) Not “date night.” Not “quality time.” A full-blown, no-apologies celebration. We live for collecting moments and creating memories.
Because if you are not celebrating the fact that you both made it through another timeline without each other— does anything really matter?
I had to personally educate my man on the sacred hierarchy of bubbles. Champagne is not just “fancy sparkling wine.” It is the French aristocrat with a protected designation of origin. The bubbles were originally an accident as the fermentation process caused stored wines to explode, delivering that signature toasty, brioche-y complexity and those aggressive, fine bubbles that taste much more superior than synthetically created ones. Prosecco is the fun, flirty Italian cousin — brighter, fruitier, cheaper, and happy to show up to literally any occasion without an attitude. And then there is generic sparkling wine, the chaotic neutral workhorse that gets the job done when the good stuff is sold out or you are feeling budget-conscious.
We now exclusively order and stock the goods. Delivery drivers, grocery stores, bars or restaurants we are forever part of some elite sparkling wine cartel. No more settling. Life is too short for mid bubbles.
And yes — my boyfriend occasionally does shots with my father. Because bonding. Because tradition. Because nothing forges that sacred father-in-law/son-in-law alliance quite like grimacing through a round of vodka while pretending they are not both slightly terrified of each other. I sit back with my drink and watch these two grown men bond over the universal language of “let’s burn our throats and talk about Trump so we don’t have to talk about feelings.” It is disgusting. It is wholesome. It is peak masculinity.
I on the other hand am a disciplined one-espresso-martini woman. That perfect, caffeinated, slightly dangerous little monster in a martini glass. One is elegant. The rest of the drinks are for celebration purposes only.
This is what the sobriety police failed to understand: drinking is how we weaponize joy against the void. Why would I care if alcohol prematurely ages my cells when my man is forever babying me and making my life silly, fun and easy? It pushes us to create more memories and experiences.
It turns ordinary moments into legendary ones. That random dinner I made becomes “the night we popped the good bottle and laughed until we cried.”
It lowers the volume on the noise. The anxiety of not being together, the overthinking, the endless mental tabs open in my brain — alcohol (and him) is the world’s most reliable (if imperfect) volume knob.
It creates actual memories instead of just content. Sobriety is great for optimization. But you know what is better? Happiness. Celebrating that happy moment is great for living a story worth telling.
It is rebellion in a glass. Every time you choose celebration over optimization, you are flipping off the wellness grifters— your sleep scores and your hormone levels do not provide a full picture of how your life is going to go.
Two people clink champagne glasses on a terrace overlooking a coastal sunset town.
Life is already one giant, absurd, painful, hilarious win just by virtue of you still being here. The universe is actively trying to humble you every single day. Might as well humble it back with some bubbles and bad decisions that turn into good stories.
So yeah. We drink. We celebrate. We treat every shared hour like it is New Year’s Eve because the alternative is pretending this is all very serious and we should be optimizing our sleep scores instead of making questionable choices with each other.
A champagne bottle is popped open, spraying bubbly foam at a festive gathering.
Pop it. Live a little. The sober police will still be there tomorrow, miserable and well-rested.
There is something profoundly moving about watching thousands of international visitors descend on the United States for the 2026 FIFA World Cup. From the bustling fan zones in New York and Los Angeles to the sun-drenched stadiums in Atlanta and Dallas, you see it everywhere: wide-eyed wonder, genuine excitement, and heartfelt appreciation for a country many of us who live here have started taking for granted.
Foreign fans are posting viral videos of their first glimpses of the true Americana or the electric energy of a tailgate outside a big city match. They marvel at the sheer scale of it all—the open roads stretching across prairies, the diversity of landscapes that shift dramatically from desert to mountain to forest within a single day’s drive, the friendliness of strangers striking up conversations in line for coffee. One Brazilian visitor recently described driving through Texas as “stepping into a movie that never ends.” A Japanese supporter called the Pacific Northwest “more beautiful than anything in anime.” These reactions are not performative; they are raw, joyful rediscoveries of what America offers. Something that my parents and I also experienced when we moved to the States in’94.
And yet, among too many actual citizens, that sense of awe feels sorely missed. We would rather squawk about the racism and the homelessness that is so rampant across the media.
Moreover, I believe that the familiarity breeds, if not contempt, then at least complacency. We wake up to the same highways, the same grocery stores, the same news cycles filled with division, inflation worries, and political noise. Daily life—commutes, bills, scrolling through outrage—obscures the grandeur right outside our doors. The Grand Canyon becomes “that place we visited once as kids.” Yellowstone is reduced to a checkbox on a bucket list we never quite get around to (and a terrific show). Even iconic cityscapes lose their magic when you are just trying to make rent.
Media and cultural narratives often amplify the negatives: crumbling infrastructure stories, crime statistics in certain cities, human feces. or endless debates about drug use and overall decline. They focus on the big blue states and cities, not the lovely hospitality that these tourists are experiencing. While legitimate challenges exist and should be addressed honestly, they can crowd out the overwhelming reality that the United States remains one of the most geographically, culturally, and opportunity-rich nations on Earth.
Visitors do not carry that baggage. They arrive with fresh eyes, unburdened by partisan fatigue or local frustrations. A European tourist might contrast our vast national parks with crowded ones back home. A fan from a smaller country experiences American hospitality—the helpful directions from a random passerby, the massive portions that feel generous, the casual “how’s your day going?” from service workers—as refreshing rather than expected. They see possibility where we sometimes see problems.
From the red rocks of Sedona to the heights of the Smokies, America’s parks and wilderness areas are unmatched in variety and accessibility. World Cup visitors renting RVs or taking road trips are posting content that makes lifelong residents pause and think, “Wait, I live near that?”
Plus, the fusion of foods, music, sports, and innovation in cities like Houston, Seattle, or Philadelphia. Street festivals, food trucks serving every cuisine imaginable, live music spilling out of bars—the dynamism that feels routine until someone from abroad calls it “the most alive place I’ve ever been.”
You have to remember that this country offers the ability to drive for hours without crossing a border. The variety of lifestyles, from tech hubs to ranching communities. The underlying assumption that you can reinvent yourself here, which still draws ambitious people worldwide.
This is not blind patriotism. America has flaws—every country does. But we would rather celebrate the pride of being homosexuals or another kind of mental illness. The visitors’ excitement reminds us that those flaws do not erase the extraordinary.
The World Cup offers a perfect moment for reflection. As stadiums fill with international colors and anthems echo across the country, Americans should take the opportunity to play tourist in our own backyard. Plan a weekend trip to a nearby state park. Drive a scenic byway instead of the interstate. Strike up a conversation with someone who looks different from you at a local game. Learn the history of the landmarks they pass every day.
PATRIOTISM
We do not need foreign validation to love our country, but their visible joy can serve as a mirror—showing us what we risk losing when cynicism takes over. Gratitude is a choice. Wonder is a habit worth rebuilding.
Next time you see a group of excited visitors snapping photos of the Statue of Liberty, the Rockies, or even a classic Midwest gas station, let it stir something in you. That awe is not gone; it is just been waiting for us to notice it again.
America is still here—vast, complicated, and breathtaking. Sometimes it takes the world coming to visit for us to remember why so many still dream of calling it home.
Let’s not miss it anymore.
What a BEAUTIFUL way to start our 250th birthday celebration! This is true pride and I am incredibly proud!
At fifteen years old, I stepped off a plane into a world that felt like it had leaped straight out of a National Geographic. The air was warmer, drier, and carried the faint scent of eucalyptus. I was part of the People to People Ambassador Program, a life-changing opportunity that took a group of wide-eyed American teens halfway around the globe to Australia. What started as a simple cultural exchange trip quickly became a whirlwind of big-city glamour, rugged outback exploration, family-style homestays, and the kind of teenage chaos that only happens when you are far from home and the usual rules do not quite apply (the innocent kind though, not really what we see on teenager television shows).
Our itinerary was perfectly balanced between urban sophistication and raw Australian wilderness. We bounced between the gleaming harbors of Sydney and Melbourne and endless stretches of red earth in the outback. Long bus rides became our moving classrooms—hours spent watching the landscape shift from bustling streets to golden grasslands. We stayed with local families who opened their homes (and hearts) to us, sharing meals, stories, and glimpses into everyday Aussie life that no guidebook could ever capture.
Sydney hit me like a fever dream. The iconic Opera House rose like white sails against the sparkling harbor, its curves even more breathtaking in person than in any photo I had seen. We toured the Olympic facilities from the 2000 Games, walking through stadiums that once echoed with global cheers. I remember standing there, imagining the roar of the crowd, feeling tiny yet somehow part of something enormous.
But beneath the excitement, I carried a heavy secret. This was the year after I started high school, and the pressure to look and be “perfect” had already taken root in my mind. Australia felt like the ultimate reset button—a chance to reinvent myself far from judgmental eyes back home. Before the trip even began, I emailed the volunteer chaperones with a carefully worded note: I would not be eating much, and they should not worry about me. Looking back now, it breaks my heart to think of that determined, insecure fifteen-year-old girl trying so hard to control the one thing she could in a brand-new country.
On those long bus rides, packed lunches were handed out like clockwork—sandwiches thick with deli meats, crisp chips, and sweet treats. I would politely unwrap mine, eat only the apple, and quietly put the rest aside. The volunteers were kind, but I could feel their concerned glances. During our homestay in Melbourne, the warm “mom” of the house cooked a hearty Australian meal just for us. I pushed the plate away after a few bites, murmuring something about being full. Her disappointed but understanding look still lingers with me. Food became both enemy and background noise while the real adventure swirled around me.
Of course, no trip at fifteen would be complete without plenty of youthful mischief. I flirted shamelessly with the boys in our group—stolen glances across bus aisles, whispered jokes during tours, and that electric buzz of first crushes amplified by the freedom of being overseas.
The Australian sun, however, showed no mercy. Wanting to be perfect meant that I wanted golden skin. I ended up severely sunburned. My skin turned lobster-red, peeling in painful sheets for days. Lesson learned: respect the ozone hole Down Under.
One of my biggest hurdles was begging my mother—via crackly payphone calls from a random shopping mall —to let me get my belly button pierced. I pleaded, I reasoned, I dramatically described how “everyone” was doing it. She held firm.
Instead, I settled for a temporary tattoo from a quirky shop near the harbor. It was some butterfly design that I proudly showed off to the group. When I got home, I let everyone believe it was real, basking in the temporary cool factor before it faded in the shower. Small rebellions, big memories.
The real soul of the trip was during our long bus tours through the outback. The landscape stretched endlessly—red dirt, scrubby bushes, and skies so vast they made you feel wonderfully insignificant. We learned about Aboriginal culture, their deep connection to the land, and the stories passed down through oldtime legends.
A vehicle traverses a winding red dirt road through arid outback terrain under a partly cloudy sky
One unforgettable stop was a wildlife sanctuary where I finally got to hold a tiny koala. He was everything I imagined: fluffy gray fur, button eyes, and a sleepy demeanor (apparently they are constantly high from eating the eucalyptus). I beamed for the camera, arms gently cradling him. But internally? I was screaming. Those adorable little claws dug into my arm like tiny needles. Sharp did not even begin to describe it. Still, worth every scratch for that photo and the story.
We spotted kangaroos hopping freely in the wild—elegant, powerful creatures that seemed to defy gravity. At the sanctuary, we got closer, feeding them and watching their curious faces up close. Later, in a remote outback experience hosted by Aboriginal elders, we were treated to kangaroo tail. It was an honor to share in their traditional food. The tail was tough, mostly dense muscle with very little fat or tenderness—chewy, gamey, and completely unlike anything I had eaten before. It was not about gourmet flavor; it was about connection, respect, and tasting a piece of the land itself.
That trip to Australia did not magically fix my insecurities around food and body image. Those battles continued for years as I eventually got down to double digits on the bathroom scale. But it planted seeds of perspective. I saw a country that was both modern and ancient, vibrant and harsh, welcoming and wild. I learned that adventures are messy—full of sunburns, awkward flirtations, hidden struggles, and moments of pure wonder.
Holding that koala, even through the pain, symbolized something bigger: sometimes the cutest, most picture-perfect experiences are actually concealing something painful. Pushing away plates did make me feel more in control; but it also made me miss out on shared meals and hospitality. The temporary tattoo washed off, but the memories never did.
Years later, I look back on that fifteen-year-old girl with compassion. She was brave enough to travel across the world, curious enough to embrace new cultures, and human enough to make mistakes. Australia taught me that life is best experienced fully—sunburns, sharp claws, kangaroo tail, and all.
If you ever get the chance to say yes to an adventure that scares and excites you, justdo it (like Nike!). Whether it is Australia or somewhere closer to home, the outback of your own growth is waiting.
I will say it out loud, no shame: I used to want to be a full-on Sugar Baby. Not the cheap fantasy version you see online, but the real thing—pampered, polished, and possessed by a man who could afford to keep me dripping in luxury and attention. I was never on Seeking Arrangements or any of those sites, but when I got really sick, that dream became my secret lifeline. While my body was failing me, my mind was busy painting a future where I was not disabled anymore. I imagined myself as this feminine goddess: luscious long hair cascading down my back, completely hairless and smooth everywhere that mattered, skinny, full makeup—the whole package. The kind of girl men could not look away from.
I joined a private Facebook group full of girls who knew exactly how to weaponize their femininity. They taught me how to dress, how to move, how to speak, how to flirt with power and money. Every post, every tip, every “how to make him obsessed” thread lit a fire under me. It gave me something to fight for on the worst days. While I was stuck in a wheelchair, I was mentally rehearsing the version of me that would turn heads and drain wallets. I wanted to be noticed. I wanted to be admired. Craved. Spoiled. Chosen. Deep down, I did not feel worthy of any of it yet—but that fantasy made me believe I could be.
And then… it actually happened.
When we first connected on Twitter (yes, Twitter, before Elon Musk saved us with X) the sugar baby lifestyle was all that I hoped for and I absolutely was not looking for anything real. Commitment? Hard pass. Feelings? Too risky. But attention and shiny new toys? Those I could handle. So that was what I settled for. I strung him along, playing it cool, dropping hints about what I wanted without ever sounding desperate. He read between the lines perfectly.
He knew the game from the jump. I gave him a PO Box instead of my real address at first—safety first,—and every single week, like clockwork, a new package would show up. AirPods? Delivered with a cheeky video of him on the Apple website ordering them while I was lounging in Cabo, both of us convinced our flirty Twitter phase was fizzling out. A Pretty Woman DVD (yes, an actual physical DVD, the man has taste and nostalgia). Barstool Sports gear for days because we bonded hard over the unfiltered sports talk that made us both laugh like idiots. He spoiled me rotten, and I let him. No guilt. No apologies.
Every girl should experience sugar baby vibes at least once. There is something powerfully feminine about being pursued, pampered, and provided for while you keep your little heart in a little locked box. The hundred-dollar Venmos, the surprise drops, the thrill of knowing he is thinking about you every time he swipes his card—it is intoxicating. It is not just about the stuff. It is the power dynamic. The way it makes you feel desired, expensive, worth the chase.
But then it got real.
The constant contact—the good-morning texts, the voice notes that made me smirk in public, the weekends that turned into three hour-long FaceTime coffee dates—started cracking my walls. What began as “he buys me things, I give him attention” slowly became I can’t quit him. The sugar daddy arrangement was the gateway drug, but the real addiction was him. His humor. His voice. The way he matched my chaotic energy and then some.
Now? He still pays my bills. No more random Venmos, but the support is deeper, steadier, sexier in its reliability. He is not just a sugar daddy anymore—he is my man. My love. My favorite person on the planet.
Yet those Baby and Daddy vibes? They never left. They evolved into something deliciously playful and immature that keeps the spark filthy and fun.
We act like absolute children together. The kind of childish that involves wrestling over the remote (when we are physically together), ridiculous nicknames, and the kind of uncontrollable laughter that turns into happy tears and breathless squeals. I have never laughed as hard in my life as I do with him. The squeals he pulls out of me—they are embarrassing and addictive. When we first started talking, I used to slap my hand over my mouth— hiding my crooked smile from his view. We are talking full-on belly laughs that leave my abs sore and my face hurting. Pure, unfiltered joy. The man makes me happy in a way I did not know was possible. The kind of happy that makes you glow, that makes everyone side-eye you like, “Who the hell are you right now?”
There is something profoundly hot about a relationship that can go from “Daddy’s spoiling his baby” to deep, soul-quenching love without losing the playfulness. The power exchange is still there. He provides, I tease. He leads, I challenge. He has me feeling both safe and completely unraveled. A feeling I never expected. I thought that I would be the other woman. Or a sugar baby. Not the main event.
So if a man is willing to show up for you like that—financially, emotionally, playfully—do not be afraid to lean in. Sugar baby energy is not about being shallow; it is about knowing your worth and letting someone prove they can match it. And when the gifts turn into genuine love, when the “arrangement” becomes “forever,” it hits different. Deeper. Wetter. Louder.
I went from stringing him along with a PO Box to being completely, stupidly in love with the man who still makes me feel like the most spoiled and cherished woman alive—went from a sick girl who did not feel worthy of being looked at to the woman who gets spoiled, and loved so intensely/passionately it leaves me ruined for anyone else.
Let us get one thing straight right out of the gate. If you think I have been out here living some glamorous, globe-trotting influencer fantasy, you are cute. But you are dead wrong.
For people who rarely leave their own state, my recent passport stamps might look impressive. Brazil. Spain. London. Paris. Dubai. “Wow, she’s been everywhere!” Yeah, well, news flash: I have not. Not really. These trips happened in the era my body decided to betray me and park me in a wheelchair.
There was no carefree frolicking through exotic streets. No sexy bikini photo shoots with golden-hour lighting and a cocktail in hand (sad!). Most of the time I was either hooked up to treatments or too exhausted to do anything but stare at clinic walls.
Brazil and Spain? Those were not vacations. They were medical missions. Spiritual awakening. Healing quests. I traded sandy beaches and nightlife for IV drips, experimental protocols, and the sterile smell of hope. I saw the inside of healing centers far more than I saw the actual countries. The world outside my treatment room might as well have been a postcard.
But here is the provocative part most “wellness girlies” will never admit: even when your body is falling apart, your appetite for life (and flavor) does not die. I refused to be that sad girl. I did not want to just order chicken tenders.. Especially not in some of the most delicious countries on Earth.
When I was on Spain’s stunning coastline, I was mostly inside of a wellness treatment, but I was not playing it safe. I dove straight into the deep end — squid ink paella that turned my teeth and tongue midnight black, sardine pizza that made more than a few locals raise an eyebrow. I wanted the real Spain, not the sanitized tourist version. Same energy in France: I devoured crusty, glyphosate-free bread finally and happily slurped down garlicky escargot.
I do not clutch my pearls or wrinkle my nose at “weird” foreign food. That closed-minded attitude is for cowards who travel just to take photos and brag later. Eating like a local is how you actually touch the culture. It is intimate. It is sensual. It is one of the few ways a broken body can still fully say “yes” to the world.
Dubai was a completely different beast. That trip was not about healing — it was about living dangerously, even if my version of danger looked different. I have this “uncle” who has powerful friends in the Emirates. So off I went. I stood (well, sat) in front of the Burj Khalifa like a proper tourist. I felt unworthy beneath all that glittering excess. And yes, I rode a camel through the desert — an experience that was equal parts magical and chaotic. My sitting balance was trash at the time. My father had to squeeze in behind me. He was like some kind of reluctant bodyguard. He held me steady while the camel swayed beneath us.
Picture it: a wheelchair user, her dad, and a camel in the middle of the Arabian desert. The poor thing was carrying around 500 pounds (I was still a big girl). Not exactly the sexy desert romance novel scene, but it was unforgettable in its own ridiculous way.
The point is not that I have “seen the world.” The point is that I have clawed my way into experiences most people in my condition would never dare attempt. I have eaten the strange foods. I have ridden the camels. I have stared down some of the most beautiful skylines on Earth. Meanwhile, my body screamed at me to stay in bed.
I am not sharing this for sympathy. I am sharing it because I am sick of the sanitized, filtered version of disabled travel people expect. I may have had to get help getting into the plane but in all of my travels— I did not go gently. I went hungry for flavor, for views, for stories — even when it hurt. Even when it was messy. Even when I had to be held upright on a damn camel.
So yeah, I have been places. But not in the way you think. So here I am… unapologetically eating squid ink. While half-broken might not be as interesting as the bikini-on-the-beach photograph, it is me… part of my story.
Kat’s Musings 