I read Colleen Hoover’s It Ends With Us years ago and ugly-cried so hard while recapping the entire plot to my boyfriend that I probably looked like a raccoon mid-breakdown. The kind of crying where your face contorts into something unnatural and you start gasping between sobs like you are drowning in your own feelings. I am, unapologetically, a hopeless romantic—one of those people who still believes in the fairy-tale version of love even while the rest of the world rolls its eyes. So when I picked up the audiobook about five years ago, it was for the purest, most naive reason possible: I wanted to soak in another epic love story. Instead, it reached into my chest, ripped out my heart, and stomped on it in front of me.
I could not wrap my head around it at first. Why was this seemingly perfect man—the one who was so deeply, desperately in love—painted as the villain? He was not some cartoonish monster. He was charming, intense, devoted… and then the cracks showed. The story is not some soft-focus romance; it is a brutal dissection of abuse, jealousy, and the kind of anger issues that poison everything they touch. It shows how those things do not just “happen” in relationships—they metastasize. They rewrite the rules. They make you question your own instincts until you do not recognize yourself anymore.
The thing is: I am still relatively new to real-life love. No dramatic exes, no war stories, no “he cheated and I burned his clothes” lore (just the firefighter situationship). Books and movies have always been my reference library for how relationships are supposed to work. So when a story refuses to hand me the neat, tied-with-a-bow happy ending I have been conditioned to expect, it hits differently. It feels personal. Like the universe is actively trying to ruin my idealism.
The movie adaptation—starring Blake Lively, who has somehow transformed from relatable blonde (à la Gossip Girl) into full-time annoying diva energy—follows a young woman who falls hard for a young neurosurgeon in Boston. Cue the meet-cute, the chemistry, the magnetic pull. Then his anger starts leaking into the relationship like a slow poison, and an old flame shows up to complicate everything further. It is messy. It is ugly. It is the opposite of the polished rom-com fantasy I keep chasing.
I have what feels like a genuinely perfect man in my own life. The kind who does not make me walk on eggshells and does not turn love into a battlefield. So any love story that refuses to deliver the fairy-tale resolution just wrecks me. I end up ugly-crying, rambling about fictional people to my very real, very patient boyfriend, while he probably wonders how someone so soft can get this emotionally annihilated by a book and a film.
Maybe It Ends With Us is designed to gut people like me—the ones still clinging to the idea that love should always conquer everything. It does, but sometimes it ends exactly where it needs to. And that truth is still sitting heavy in my chest.
Kat’s Musings 