I have never been much of a people person. Crowds exhaust me, small talk feels like a chore, and I have always found it easier to connect with animals than with most humans. But dogs? Dogs have been my constants, my comforters, my chaos-makers, and my greatest teachers in love. From the high-energy terriers of my childhood to the massive guardians who came later, each one has left paw prints on my heart—some gentle, some chaotic, and a few that healed wounds I did not even know were bleeding.
Our first dog arrived when we moved to America: Visa, a spirited Jack Russell Terrier. She was pure gasoline wrapped in a small, wiry body—endless energy, boundless affection, and an ability to produce litters of adorable puppies every few years. We sold those puppies, but keeping Visa was never a question. She was family. She lived with us until my senior year of high school, long enough to see me through the awkward years with her wagging tail and zoomies that could clear a room.
Then there was Boy, our gentle giant Rottweiler. He was the ultimate teddy bear—massive, sweet, and protective in that quiet, soulful way Rottweilers can be. Losing him to choking on a golf ball felt like losing a piece of the family in a cruel way. I still remember the heavy silence in the house after he was gone. He was replaced by Toby— a Pitt Bull who was also a sweetheart of a burly dog. He died of cancer as my family and I were in Cuba– one year before I got sick.
In high school, I went through a full Paris Hilton phase. You know the one—tiny dog in a designer carrier, strutting like it was a runway. In order to properly cosplay, I begged my parents relentlessly until they surprised me with Gucci, a toy Maltese so small and fluffy he looked like a living stuffed animal (I did not want a chihuahua-like creature). He rode proudly in his carrier as I paraded him around, living my best Y2K celebrity fantasy. Gucci was my accessory and my buddy.
But college changed everything. When I left for school, my mother “babysat” him, and by the time I returned, he was a completely different dog—yappy, spoiled, and obsessed with spinning in circles for treats. The quiet cuddles we once shared were replaced by constant begging and zoomie demands. I loved him, but it was a lesson in how dogs absorb the energy of their environment.
While I was away at university, my parents brought home Max, an Argentinian Mastiff built like a tank. He was… a character. He growled at me whenever I tried to lie down on my childhood bed and he had expensive taste—specifically, my mother’s designer shoes. Our relationship was tense at best.
Then came the day the wheelchair van dropped me off from the hospital after the stroke. As soon as the door opened, Max made his great escape. He bolted and never looked back. Respect. Even the big tough dog knew when it was time to hit the road.
Not long after, my father brought home a Cane Corso puppy from Oregon that we named Polo. From the moment he entered our lives, we clicked. By then I was navigating life as a disabled young woman, and Polo only ever knew me that way. He did not see limitations—he saw his person. We became inseparable. He would lean his solid, muscular body against me for support (both literal and emotional), and his calm presence grounded me on the hardest days.
Losing Polo in 2018 shattered me. My friends had drifted away as my health changed, and I felt profoundly alone. Polo’s death left a hole that nothing else could fill. I was heartbroken in a way I still feel echoes of today. He was not just a dog; he was my solace, my companion through isolation, and proof that unconditional love can come with fur and a wet nose.
A couple years later, my parents rescued Xena from a trailer park nearby. An Anatolian Shepherd. She was scruffy, wild, and full of attitude. I could not stand her. I would lovingly (or not-so-lovingly) call her “Trash” and physically squirm away whenever she tried to get close. She was too much—too… everything.
Then, a year later, they brought home Zorro, a Black Russian Terrier puppy. I was instantly smitten. He was tiny, ridiculously cute, and fit perfectly in my lap. I met him over FaceTime with my boyfriend, who watched my face light up and immediately got on board with the new puppy fever. Zorro was pure joy in a fluffy black coat.
When my boyfriend finally met the whole crew in person, something magical happened. He fell in love with Xena—the dog I had written off. He played with her, doted on her, and treated her like the treasure she actually was. Seeing his genuine affection for my “Trash” dog melted every wall I had built. Suddenly, I saw Xena through new eyes. Now, on lonely days, I find myself talking to her. Her kind eyes see deep into my soul. She has become a source of comfort I never expected.
Zorro, of course, grew into a massive, still-adorable giant. He is a total mama’s boy these days and mostly ignores me in favor of my mother. That is okay—dogs get to choose their favorites too.
Looking back across Visa, Boy, Gucci, Max, Polo, Xena, and Zorro, I realize dogs have been consistent relationships in my life. They do not care about social performance or perfect health. They meet you where you are—whether you are a high schooler dreaming of Paris Hilton fame or a disabled woman learning to rebuild her world.
They have brought chaos (puppies, chewed shoes, runaway Mastiffs), heartbreak (medical incidents, cancer, putting down beloved companions), and healing (lap-sized puppies and unexpected second chances with “Trash” dogs). Through it all, they have reminded me that love does not always come from people. Sometimes it barks and teaches you that even the dogs you initially reject can become the ones you talk to when you feel alone.
If you are not a people person either, consider this your sign: open your heart to a dog (or several). They might just turn your “Trash” into treasure—and fill your life with more loyalty and laughter than you ever thought possible.
Kat’s Musings 